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Follow Up Letter

Hello there beautimus followers! Since this contest is over and I clearly didn't win, I'm writing a follow up letter for you guys. Please enjoy!

Dear Ponyboy,

How have you been? It's been a while since we last talked. Maybe a week, or two? But only because I don't have a phone, and you know that already.

Anyways, since first realising that I had feelings for you I have been trying to get you out of my mind. So my first instinct was to think about another guy. I did it to rid myself of the pain of knowing that you would never feel the same way. It was a dumb decision, but it was one that I decided to make.

After I had began thinking about this other guy, my mind had begun fighting back. It had clouded itself with only the thought of you, no matter if I were in the middle of taking a test or trying to sleep at night, it only thought of you. It thought of how cute you were and how awkward and shy I had thought you were. It thought about how you had influenced my urge to draw grafitti animals, not just the words that I grafittied onto my sketchbook paper.

Then you came to the band room for a game one day, a huge smile on your face as you walked up to me and my friend.

'Hey you guys. Do you know her?'

'Yeah, what about her?'

'We're together now. Isn't that great?'

I could tell that he knew that something in the smile I had on my face faltered when he said that, so I played it off like I was just processing the words, which I still kinda was.

He had gotten a girlfriend, that wasn't me. I had seen it coming from a mile away, but didn't see it coming at such high speeds.

'Yeah! Congradulations. I thought ya'll would've been cute anyways.'I lied as he walked off towards his group of friends. My friend looked towards me with a sad smile and pat my back. She whispered a 'sorry' as she walked off towards our friends.
That's when I knew that I had fallen In way too deep for my own good. Usually when I had gotten a crush and had been rejected on the lowest of keys, I would have just shrugged it off and think that there was something that they didn't see in me and that's ok, because someone would at some point.
But with you, I almost cried when you turned your head. My throat had closed up and there was a stinging sensation in my eyes. I mannaged to hide the hurt after a second, because I knew I couldn't have you anyways.

It had been a month into your new relationship when homecoming had came around for me. I was going by myself date wise but i had my friends to dance the night away with.

A week before the day had came as we were leaving practice together for the millionth time. We had gotten into the van with our siblings in toe, talking about our plans for homecoming night.

You had joked about going with me so I could say that I had a date. We had laughed our heads off and smiled at one another the whole ride to my house.

'If I take you, I'd have to pay for two tickets because I'd have to take your girlfriend too.' I laughed out and picked out my bags from the wayback of the huge van.

'I'd give you the money for the tickets first of all. Second, I'm not taking her with us. She's crazy!' You laughed back and stuck your head over that seat as you watched me struggle with two bags and a water jug.
I keep that moment in mind. Your sister gave me the follow-up into the next day at school about what we talked about. She said you said that you really did want to go with me then, so you asked her if you could. Like I knew she would, she said no.

There will be a part 2!!! Stay tunned!!