Him.
Janina Sanchez, the woman I love so much that I cannot find another girl to replace her in my heart. I've first met her during 5th Grade. Nagkalaban kami sa isang quiz bee at siya ang nanalo kaya umiyak ako noon. Lumapit siya sa akin at binigay ang kanyang medal. She said to me that medals are too heavy and she's satisfied with the honor and certificate.
I did my best to study with her in high school at ang saya ko dahil naging mag best friends kami.
Ja has the most perfect smile in the world when she's truly happy. Lucky for me that I've witnessed her smile. Ja, she's too strong and brave in the outside but too fragile in the inside.
Ang dali niya umiyak katulad noong aksidente niyang nabasag ang favorite vase ni Ate dahil sa kapilyuhan namin. She kept saying sorry for almost a month kahit sabi ni Ate na okay lang daw kasi may isa pa siyang vase na tulad nung nabasag.
Hindi gaya ng vase, matatag kami ni Ja. Nag-aaway kami, nagsisigawan. nagtatammpuhan – but we did never fall apart.
Ja, she's the type of girl na kapag nagkakaproblema, POSITIVE lagi. Yung mga taong humughugot sa kanya pababa? Hindi niya inaatrasan. Kung pisikal man o salita ang labanan, handa siya sumabak sa gyera lalo na kung AKO ang involve.
"Bes, I know I'm a girl pero hindi ibig sabihin na hindi kita kayang ipagtanggol sa mga lalaking naiinggit sa kagwapuhan mo. Kasalanan mo ba na gusto ka angkinin ng mga girlfriends nila? Duh."
Wala sa sariling napangiti ako habang tinitingnan siyang naglalakad patungo sa altar.
She's the most beautiful soon to be QUEEN in this world. Sadly, I will not be her KING.
Kita ko ang pagmamahalan nila Ja at Kiel that is why I let go of her. I know she's happy and she deserves it.
Akala ko noong nagtapat siya sa akin, magiging kami na but we both decided not to settle on things for our future. I fell for her, deeper and deeper na hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam kung paano ako maiaalis ang sarili ko sa pagkahulog sa kanya.
Akala ko kapag sumama ako sa US, more chances na maging kami BUT I was wrong.
"You may now kiss the bride."
Everyone was so happy especially me because I saw the greatest smile of Ja.
'I love you, bes' , she mouthed showing her wedding ring at me.
She gave me a hug and I'm trying my best not to let a single tear fell.
"Kasal na tayo, Ja," I said to her.
"Congratulations, you are now Mrs. Janina Sanchez-Madrigal," Kiel and I shook hands.
"I'm warning you, Kiel. Kapag umiyak si Ja, sisirain ko yang mukha mo," hindi ako nagbibiro sa sinabi ko kay Kiel. I'm so DAMN serious! I just want my girl to be happy at kapag nasaktan siya, hindi ako magdadalawang isip na ipaglaban siya.
"Aya, kapag nagloko si Callix, sumbong mo sa akin ha? Kakampi mo ako , Mrs. Francisco," Ja also gave Aya a hug.
As for Aya, we married each other for business reasons. The truth is, nagpakasal na kami sa ibang bansa kung saan may divorce. Aya just want to get her parents company back from her grandfather and the condition for her is to get married.
Ako naman, it was my Dad's request for us to have half of Aya's share .
Alam ni Aya ang totoo, na MAHAL ko si Ja. Wala namamagitan saming dalawa ni Aya dahil iba rin ang mahal niya.
Pinagbigyan ko lang ang hiling ni Ja na sabay kami magpakasal. Hindi man ito ang panagarap ko na "SABAY KAMI IKASAL"( yung ako yung groom at siya ang bride KO) siguro iyon ang naging kinalabasan.
Masakit. Sobra. Pero para kay Ja, kakayanin ko.
Magmahal ng iba? No, thanks. Janina Sanchez, I'm 101% sure na siya lang ang babaeng may hawak ng puso ko.
"To Ja, my first love and ONLY love, I LOVE YOU, 'till the end," – Callix, your [just] best friend.
