Southern High

The Next Day

When I woke up Malay and Nicole had to leave. Malay had a doctors appointment and Nicole had to attend brunch with her mother and her aunt Florist. I was still in pain from yesterday and I really have to use the bathroom. I counted to 20, took a deep breath and jumped out of bed.

''You know, you can hurt yourself''. When I looked by the window Rah was sitting down in the corner, looking at me.

He looked so tired. ''Why didn't you get up to help me then''. I asked leaning on the edge of the bed, because I felt light headed and I haven't ate anything from yesterday, I refused to eat the hospital food.

''Isaiah and Isabel, are you going to see them''. He asked, I wanted to at first but now I don't.

''You slept here''. I asked trying to change the subject. I couldn't wait for his response before I ran in the bathroom and throwing up in the toilet. I felt Rah rubbing my back and holding my hair.

''I went home to watch Rozal, did you eat anything''. I shook my head from side to side and got up use the bathroom, wash my hands and brush my teeth. When I looked up I saw myself in the mirror, I turned my head quick and walked out the bathroom and lay down with my back facing Rah.

I couldn't think of anything to say, so I said something short and simple. ''Oh'' was my reply.

"Zoila you have to get up and take care of yourself, your pressure is high and you won't eat anything the nurses bring you. Get up and go see your babies, you are their mother and I'm sure they would love to feel your presence''. I know he was right but I don't want too and I want everyone to respect my wishes.

''I know their my children I just gave birth to them a couple of hours ago. I will see them when I want too can't you guys just accept that. I don't need anyone saying what I need to do because I already feel horrible. I wish you all would just leave me alone. If this is too much for you to handle than maybe we shouldn't be together anymore''. I just said how I felt and what came to my mind the door opening and closing was my only response. I just cried.

A couple of minutes later it opened again and I didn't turn to see who it was I just faced the wall without turning around I want privacy to be alone with my thoughts. ''Baby it's me Grandma Rose with Papa John, Grandma Susan and Grandpa Eric and the rest of the gang''.

I didn't answer, I kept my focus on the blank white wall because that's how my life felt at the moment empty. The door opened again and I'm starting to think I need to tell my doctor I don't want any visitors at all. I heard machines and it wasn't mines. ''Mommy Ani, look at the pretty babies''. I froze why were they in here I didnt want to see them.

''Get out all of you. I told all of you I wasn't ready to see them and you wouldn't respect my wishes. Leave and take them with you''. I cried to them.

''Aright everyone, you heard my grand baby give me and Rose sometime with her than everyone and the babies can come back''. I heard shuffling so I knew they left. The bed dipped, Nana Rose was on my right side and Papa John was on my left.

''Here's a story baby girl, I was 24 when I went into early labor with two twin boys. When they were born they weren't breathing they had to be placed on breathing machines. I couldn't face them or John I felt like it was all my fault a week later, when I decide that I was going to face them it was too late Mani. My babies were dead, I waited too long because I let my guilt got the best of me. Don't let that happen to you, its not your fault don't let your guilt win you over like it did me. You can beat this and face them, up to this day I wished I could've held them while they were alive and not dead. Straightened up and keep your head high, you can do this''. Nana Rose said and I turned around and hugged her while crying. I never imagined losing them I would be devastated.

"Phat tell us what happened''. Papa John said using the nick name he gave me when I was younger he said because I was always chubby and I was his favourite, him and Nana Rose were my favourite too. I explained to them what happened yesterday from meeting with Jaylen to me giving birth.

''Ohh baby I'm sorry, Let God deal with him just like how he's helping with Isabel and Isaiah. They took them off the breathing machines for a couple of minutes to see if they would breathe on their own and they did. Isaiah looks just like you and he has some pretty light green eyes and Isabel has some pretty dimples when she smiles, ohh my that smile is gorgeous, but she wouldn't open her eyes for us. Their strong just like you, so were going to call everyone now and your going to interact with your children''. Nana Rose said. It sounded more like a statement and not a question.

Everyone came back inside and the nurse that were pushing the babies put them in front of me and she helped me to sit up, her name tag said Stacy. ''Can I hold them''. I asked hoping she'll say yes.

''Yes, just be careful with the cords around them. Their beautiful just like their mother and their improving on their breathing. Your the fist to hold them''. Nurse Stacy explained while putting Isabel in my right arm and Isaiah in my left, I cried and placed kisses on them.

"Hi Bel, Hi Siah it's mommy. I'm sorry, I tried to run but I couldn't. I didn't mean for any of this to happen, please forgive me. I love you both my little Prince and Princess''. I said while kissing them. They smiled and I saw Bel dimples and Siah light green eyes. When I turned my attention back to Bel I noticed that her eyes were open. ''Her eyes are dark green". I said to everyone while smiling. They got their eyes from Jaylen's side, his mother has green eyes.

My mother came and stood in the front of me and kissed my head. ''I'm so proud of you, now can I hold my grand babies before they go''. I couldn't help but be sad all over again their not going to sleep with me.

Everyone came and surrounded my mother and children. Except for Rah, he was by the window again but this time standing and looking outside. Nigel must have notice because he helped me off the bed and I made my way over to Rah and stood in the front of him.

''I didn't mean what I said earlier. I just wanted time to be by myself, I love you so much and I do-''. My sentence was cut off by Rah lips crashing with mine and I kissed back, letting our tongue's fight for dominance and then he broke the kiss.

''I love you so much too''. He said and I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down for a kiss again. I heard everyone saying aww so I turned around and leaned against his chest and his arms wrapped around my waist.

I looked around the room at my family and support group. I loved these people and couldn't ask for a better family. The door opened again and everyone turned their attention to the person, to say I was pissed would be wrong I wanted to act like a mad woman.

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