I Wont Do It Again

For better or worst

If u havnt read this in awhile please read back previous chapters to refresh ur memory thanks ;)

I wake up with 13 miss calls from vince I finally call back after I stretch my body. "Hello" i say in a raspy sleepy voice clearing my throat. "You good, i been thinking about you all night.."

"Yeah im good, im sorry all of that had to happen" i say in embarrassment

"It cool, i guess I'll speak to you later on.."
before i can reply Brianna walks through the front door making it known she is in the house. "GIRL I SWEAR THAT NIGGA BIREN AINT SHIT" she says sounding pissed off. Her hair messed up and mascara spreading around her eyes, i knew she had to go through some bs " ill talk to you later vince" i say rolling my eyes and hanging up

" i been told you this,What happened now bria"

"This morning after he gave me some bomb ass dick, he went to go wash his stank ass and left his phone unlocked on the bed so you know me i go through it and find out he still fucks with some bitch named mia i heard about this bitch soo many times, dont she fuck with Raynard lil friend dremon?" She says sounding tired out

"Girl i dont know who that boy girlfriend is, and you need to drop him you too cute for this.....man i cant be talking i need to drop Raynard"

"Ik its hard when the dick bomb sis"

Me and bria then both laugh
11:20 hits and i get read to leave to go to this doctors appointment with Raynard bum ass

As i get in the car he aint even look at me "hey" i say trying to warm things up "sup" he says. I just left it at that i didnt even bother to start a conversation. The whole car ride was silent with the radio playing low, we both get out the car and wait in the waiting room. Our doctor then calls us in and she asked me all the basic questions but when she asked me when was the last time i was sexually active my heart was racing lol.

Raynard gives me a little side smirk while shaking his head because he knew he was going to be disappointed "about 1month ago" i say looking at Raynard hoping he wasn't going to start bitching. "Okay i will be back with ur blood pressure results and update on the babies health" after the doctor leaves the air was still and everything was silent i then look over at Raynard he looked so lost in his thoughts "can you please look at me..." i say almost crying he then looks at me for a second and then looks away

The doctor comes back and says the baby is healthy and that i have high blood pressure and is probably caused by stress and can kill my baby.......
After we leave and get in the car the ride was still silent. When we stoped at a red light that we always stop at before turning onto Briannas apartment complex I broke down crying Raynard then pulls over and looks at me crazy for a minute. "Baby please take me home, i cant stand being away" i say sniffling and crying really hard "woah, calm down talk slowly" he says wiping my tears instead of repeating myself i just hug him and told him i love him... and he actually said it back after i
get my self together i say "i wanna go back home... i know this break wasn't something long but i dont want it to be any longer then this... i just need you"

Me and raynard stare at eachother and all our good memories pop up in my head i then snap out, i look over and see raynard crying his damn self with a medicine bottle in his hand "baby what the fuck are those for?" He was still there silently crying. Before i could grab the bottle he throws em out the window. "Baby...are u on drugs.... answer me ray"
"No i aint on drugs.....look im sorry for everything i put you through i keep forgetting you young as shit. But ima need you to bare with me i love you soooo much baby and ik i just don't deserve you...i been put on this prescription that been making my anger issues worst, i aint wan tell u i have anger issues or tell you i was on persecution..i didnt want you to look at me different or treat me differently, I swear somthing be taking over my body when im off these fucking pills i feel like a fuckin demon. I want u to come back i swear i do but we need more time" raynard says as a tear rolls down his cheek. "Baby no i gotta be with u i just wanna have everything go back to how its was, i just wanna be a family" i say wiping his tear.