B: yeah I kinda figured but I mean it's not your fault, you can't control who you like. And I'm sorry that I don't like you back but I still wanna be friends.
C: that's fine, haha idk why I made such a big deal out of this, it wasn't even that bad.
I lied to her.
I ran to the bathroom, tears seconds away from streaming down my face. Even though she didn't totally reject me and tell me to leave her alone, it still hurt. I've liked her since I met her, and as I've gotten to know her, my feelings for her have just grown stronger. I open my bathroom cabinet, looking for pills or a razor or something to help numb my pain.
I laugh as I realize how crazy I sound, I told my crush that I like her and now that I know she doesn't like me back, I'm gonna hurt myself? No, that's not a good way to go about this.
I sigh and close the cabinet and plop down onto the floor, mentally exhausted.
I hadn't realized that I was actually crying until now, I guess it is just so common that I don't notice it anymore. I've been on the edge of a mental breakdown so much lately that I've been crying half the time I'm in my room. I've been going downhill for a while now, I haven't been hungry for days, food just doesn't taste the same anymore, I haven't been sleeping more than 5 hours in almost two weeks, and I'm just so confused all the time.
I just hope that tomorrow Bailey and I can talk and act like nothing happened.
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Missing You
Romance{Girl x Girl} A story based on my real life experiences. *WARNING: there will be mentions of depression, eating disorders, cutting and other stuff like that so please don't read this if that upsets you.*
