Virika ff ~ The Circle Of Life

Dear Diary ~ Reality Check

11 AUGUST 2013 --

Finallyyy I got a chance to sneak here and get some sense into this stupid head of mine, as much as I try to accept this new life, I am unable to, I keep telling myself to get accustomed to this way of living because I don't know, how long this is going to continue. I don't know how Di accepted it, she has always been the strong headed independent girl, who Dad trusted to deal with everything, while I held his hands even while crossing the road. 

... and I got to go again, someone is shouting my name insanely.

I am back, still unsuccessful to find anything that would motivate me to go on, all I can see is that my future is no more than these dull gray walls that surround me at this moment, my sister has already accepted this so I don't know, where I should go. You know what? the thing that surprises me the most is that my sister who had the strength to fight against the management of a college because they were involved in helping a bully, is silent today, when I need her the most she has accepted our doomed fate. Mum and Dad always said you couldn't survive in this world unless you were strong headed, according to them, Di was the perfect example of this statement while I still had a long way to go and I now for sure know, they were right, I guess thats why whenever I am getting this 'beautiful reward of a slap from my grandmother, I choose to come into this storeroom and cry my heart out and also don't forget the unlimited ranting that I have been doing against my sister, instead of standing up for myself or for my sister. 

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HEY!

third time in a day that I have found abode in this tiny room, but honestly this is the only place I am comfortable currently. So the so called "In Laws" of my sister came over, and as usual I messed up, but How am I suppose to know that I can't ask about my only sister's well being? turns out, here girls are supposed to stay quite and not even come in front of any outsiders contrary to the marathon I ran from here to the ground floor just because I thought Di would be there, the looks I got ughhh! If we had still been home, a crazy encounter with a relative would have lead to all four of us laughing till our stomachs ached, but here I got one more rule added to the already endless rule book of this house, after all I am living in their house, I am suppose to do whatever the crap they say, even if that means only getting to talk to my sister twice a week because apparently I am not letting her settle into her new life. 

NEW LIFE MY FOOT! 

We are suppose to be doing something, how can we stay quiet, they abducted our parents in front of our eyes, and even after three months are still sending us these 'we know everything about your existence and If you by any chance have any plan to go to the police, the already zero chance of you meeting your parents would become absolute"

And my "strong independent" sister is believing this shit and has allowed herself to be traded to some random stranger, just because we have no where to go, nothing in our hands. according to her the main reason she's doing this is because our parent's life is at risk, what I don't understand is how her getting married (forcefully) is going to help us anyways, we have basically just given in to becoming slaves for the rest of our life, leaving all our dreams back in Mumbai I guess.

Time to get into bed, the search party is gonna come any moment to make sure I am not doing anything sneaky, I wonder what sneaky is in their dictionary because except for you, my precious diary I have nothing. 

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