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One two three, one two three,

One, the first time. The weight unbearable.  The pressure tremendous, the hurt horrendous. Why am I different. Can't sit, just keep moving just keep moving. A pain worst then a crash, the flames, they keep coming, burning, burning, till I become ash. A disgrace. Disappointment, can't sit, just keep moving, just keep moving. But I can't, one pill. Two pills. Twelve. Calm.

One two three, one two three,

Two, again. The fighting, the yelling. I hate you, I'm leaving, Go to hell. Begging no. One plate, two knives, three vases. Crash. Silence. The teasing, ignore it. Smile wider than the Joker. The flames are back. They get upset when ignored. It'll get better. You'll be fine. Antisocial. What the hell is wrong with you! Disgrace. Disappointment. What the hell is wrong with you! Poison. One sip. Two sip. Five. Calm.

One two three, one two three,

Three, one more time. She's angry again. Clean the damn house, fix this fucking room. Lonely. Its dark in here. Why! Happy. Please let me feel it. Why can't I be it. Mommy its dark in here. It never works. I'm never good enough. Am I good girl? Do I make you proud? Happy. What does it feel like? Third times a charm right? Right?! Happy. Happy. Happy. Two pills. Four pills. Fifteen. Calm.

One two three, one two three,

I'm in here. Hello! Hello! I'm here! Please notice me. I want to be like you. No more, I promise. But I want you to hear me. Hello! Hello! Will it ever get better? Will it ever get better? Will it ever get better?

One two three, one two three.