A Beautiful Mess

I thought loving someone would be easy for me. Yeah it is, with other girls but not with her. She's the most complicated girl I've ever met. She have issues that I never understand. We're different in many ways. What I love is what she don't, what I don't is what she loves. But still universe brought us together, like a puzzle. And I'm happy.

-Stephan Del Ocampo

I'm not a fan of anything. I don't believe in fate or in destiny. Kung bakit nangyari yan ay dahil ikaw ang gumawa. Internal locus ba. I don't like kids, marriage or relationships. Bakit? Kasi madaling magbago ng mga gusto ang tao. Hindi forever yan ang needs at wants mo. Madami pang interesting na bagay ang mangyayari at dadating sayo. I love changing!

-Alexandra Santiago

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It was Carlo's party when I first met her. She's a friend of one of Carlo's colleagues. Maganda siya but out of style. She's wearing an Iron Man shirt and headphones kahit sobrang lakas na nung sounds. Hindi din siya umiinom ng beers. She's just sitting there alone enjoying her own world. Lalapitan ko na sana siya ng pigilan ako ni Carlo.

"Don't you dare go near her. Wag daw sabi ni Dianne." Bakit pa siya pumunta dito if she doesn't want to party and mingle? Pero hindi ko sinabi yan kay Carlo instead,

"I dare. Look and see." Napalunok na lang si Carlo habang kumuha ako ng dalawang beer. Yeah, tingnan natin ngayon.

I'm in front of her and still she's looking at her phone.

"Hey." I said, still nothing.

"Would you mind if I sit here beside you? Okay. Thanks." Umupo na ako sa tabi niya. Nakita ko yung ibang bisita na tumingin sa akin. Si Dianne, parang may multong nakita.

"Gusto mo ba ng beer?" Inaabot ko sa kanya yung beer na hawak ko. "Iced tea? Tea or coffee? Ah baka gusto mo ng milk. I'll get you." Ako na yung mukhang tanga dito.

"Okay fine. Why did you came here? It's a party and everyone is having fun except you. So why?" Inalis niya ang headphones niya at tumingin sa akin. Feeling ko nasa horror movie kami. Nakakatakot yung tingin niya.

"Ikaw ba yung may birthday dito? Hindi naman diba? Nasaan tayo? Nasa Pilipinas tayo diba? It's a damned free country! I will do what I want so please go away." Sinabi niya yan in a cool calm way. Yun yung nakakatakot kasi mas harshed kapag ang tahimik nagalit.

I laughed. Baliw na siguro ako kasi instead na matakot ako sa kanya, mas natawa pa ako. This is the first time na may babaeng sinigawan ako or hindi na-intimidate sa kagwapuhan ko. "Yeah. You're right but can't you see na sa dami ng tao dito ako lang yung may care na magtanong sayo."

"Dahil pakielamero ka." Ilalagay niya ulit ang headphones niya ng pigilan ko siya. Mas sumama yung tingin niya sa akin and that made me laughed harder.

"Sadya bang ganyan ka makatingin? Ang cute! Hahahaha!" Kinuha niya yung beer na hawak ko at itinapon sa front part ng pants ko. And with that she laughed louder than I am. Napatigil ang mga bisita at nakatingin sila lahat sa amin.

"Someone's peed on his pants! Hahahaha!" Akala ko wala na siyang igaganda pa. Mas gumanda pa siya ng tumawa siya. Yung mga mata niya na sabay  tumatawa sa kanya. She is so beautiful.

"I'm Stephan. You are?" She stopped and stood up. I also did.

"Not a chance, Mister." She left without giving me her name. But surely I'll never forget her face.