My Story

The Summer

My last year of middle school... I could feel it, the freedom of summer, the last day was pretty sad but it was nice getting home and— Yea my summer sucked.. I had fallen into an extremely deep depression not too far into it, and I had basically shut myself off from the outside world and just died on the inside.. I learned I was empathetic, and to a very extreme degree, so I blamed my problems on it "I'm suffering because I'm too empathetic, I'm reacting too strongly.." I had eating problems, and because wanted to help people by letting them vent to me, I was more invested in them than I was myself. You couldn't see any self care at all! I lost 9 pounds in under a week because of my depression and fixation in helping those in bad situations, but I was only harming myself.. I had the "I'm worthless and feel below everyone, I'll help them because that's what I feel is right and is fitting of my placement" complex. I felt like I didn't matter..