just peraltiago things

dear diary...

so i saw this quote once that i've never been able to find again, but it stuck in my mind and inspired me to write this.

amy 

the door from captain holt's office swings open and i look up from my paperwork just as jake is walking by. he tosses something across the room to charles, who catches it. jake grins. there's something about his smile. something that even my very advanced vocabulary can't describe. as jake turns towards me i realise i'm staring at him, so I quickly turn back to my paperwork and pretend i've been focusing on my case.

"santiago!" jake says playfully

i am so surprised i snap my head up, a little too quickly. i can feel myself blushing.

"i'm just heading down to get lunch. do you want anything?" he asks.

"oh, no i'm fine thanks." 

i turn my face back to my paperwork so he doesn't notice how red my face is. ugh, why does he make me so nervous? i'm never like this around him. i look up slightly to see jake walking into the elevator. it's like he doesn't have a care in the world. i watch the elevator doors close and for a second, jake's eyes meet mine. i want to smile at him, but the doors close shut and jake disappears. for some reason, i suddenly become very aware of the hair hanging next to my ears. absent-mindedly, i tuck it behind my ears and breathe out a little sigh. he'll never know how much i like him.

jake 

"dismissed" holt waves his hand at the door. 

i push the door open and reach for the stapler in my pocket. charles looks at me expectantly. i grin and pull the stapler out. charles bet me i couldn't steal the stapler (the only working one in the precinct) off holt's desk. if i could, i could get pizza for charles and me for lunch. if i couldn't, charles would force me to try the 'delicacy' of octopus balls. i chuck him the stapler. pizza here i come. i turn around to ask amy if she wants anything. i could get her her favourite chinese food.

"santiago!" i say.

she looks up from her paperwork. she looks kind of surprised. cute.

"um, i'm just heading down to get lunch, do you want anything?" i ask.

"oh, no, i'm fine thanks." she just looks straight back to her paperwork without giving me a second look. 

i try to hide my disappointment and head over to the elevator. just as the elevator doors are closing, i look back to amy, and she looks back at me. i go to smile at her, but the elevator doors close and she disappears behind them. i sigh. she'll never notice how much i like her.