My Upside Down Life

School/Lonely

Being in high school is really hard. Having your first love,heartbreak,and even being stab in the back by your friends. I used to have have friends,but that changed when my boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend.
Flashback- in sophomore year of high school
I was going over to Jacob house to surprise him for his birthday. I used the key that was hidden under his garden gnome. I had to be very quiet because I want this to be a good surprise. When I got to his room I heard a faint sound of a girl is his room. The door was cracked a little bit. I put the stuff I had in my hands down and opened the door slowly. I was scared of what I was about to see. I saw my boyfriend and best friend in the bed together having sex. "What the hell is going on" screaming to the top of my lungs. Jacob got out of the bed swiftly. "Babe it's not what you think"he says. "What do you mean it's not what she thinks. It's exactly what she thinks"she says laughing. " Jacob I thought you loved me"tears burn my eyes. "Fae listen he has never loved you"  Britney says rudely. "Just think about it, where was he on Valentine's Day ohh how about on the night of freshman prom year." "He was wrapped up in my covers having the best time of his life." "Is that true Jacob? " Tears running down my now rosey check. He doesn't answer, but only putting his head down staring at the floor. "Go to hell" I say walking out the room. "Fae wait lets talk about it." Grabbing my wrist. "About what,you being an asshole and cheating on me behind my back three times. I knew something was wrong and I asked you, but you told me nothing is wrong and to forget about it." Yelling angry. I try to leave ,but he still have a good grip on my wrist.""Jakob let me go." I yell. As soon as I left the room I heard Britney say "Drama Queen " and I walked out the house.

After that day I didn't go to school for a week crying my eyes out. Then after a few months ,I fought with my parents because my grades were slipping and they didn't like it. I said some mean things that I wish I could take back. That same night I came home from a party at exactly 11:30p.m. I was wait for my mom and dad to say " Where Have You Been." But I didn't get any of that. It was dead quiet and dark ,so I turned on the lights. Frightened by what I saw . I screamed,cried, and yell for help. I even called the police trying to explain that both of my parents were on the ground with their throats open and bruises all over there body. When the police came they saw the bodies. I stood up only to be welcomes with darkness. I woke up  to the sound of whispering from the doctors. Everything around me was blurry. They saw that I was awake and started to ask me questions. " Do you know where you are?" The doctor asks. " In the hospital."I know for sure because of all the lights and Strong smell of disinfectant. " What is the last thing you remember?" "I remember having a bad dream that my family was dead on the floor at home with their throats open." I say unknowingly. The doctor sigh. " That was no dream. That happened and u had a panic attack and fainted. " He says sadly. I laughed nervously. " You're lying that was only a dream and my family will come get me because when I got home I was drunk and I fainted." I cried. "I'm sorry for your lost." The doctor says sadly. " Noooooooo" I screamed and cried. That night I cried my self to sleep. The doctor kept me for three day , so the police can clear anything that can us as evidence and also clean up the blood. They let me leave after my third day in the hospital. I was glad to be home, but something was missing. Oh yea my family not here to scold me for being reckless. Later that night I started to cut my arm to make the pain inside go away. It help a bit ,but not as much as I want it to. On Monday I went back to school with a long sleeve shirt on in the middle of the summer. People look at me because I had swollen eyes and was stupid enough to have a long sleeve shirt on.  A week later when I was changing out of my gym clothes Coach Mia say my old scars and my  most recent cuts. She wanted to talk about but I got mad and told her to mind her own business. Later that day, a therapist showed up on my doorstep wanting to talk to me. (Ring Ring)The doorbell sounded. I open the door. " Hello how can I help you" Not wanting to be rude. "Hello, I'm Katherine and also a therapist. Are you Crystal Fae Jones? " she asks. "Go away" Try to close the door. She puts her foot in the doorway. " Please listen Crystal if you close this door on me I have no choice,but to get someone to remove you for your house and take you to the Queen Mage Asylum and you will be there for quite a while." She breathes. " What do you want ?" I asks. " To help you." She says with a smile. "Fine come in." For an hour we have been talking and I had to sign  a lot of sheets so she would be my therapist for the rest of this year or until I get better. I will get better because it's like having a babysitter to watch you every week on Wednesdays. I gradually start to get better over the courses of these last months. I even graduated with the help of Katherine.Today is my last day and as I talk I was thinking back to the first month of the sessions. I made it hard for her and soon I stop because she was there for me when others weren't. Tears well in my eyes and also Katherine's eyes also. At the end of the hour we said our goodbyes and I left?