Songs

Failure

I'm a failure
my behavior
is the reason that I'm seeing
such a traitor in my eyes
because whenever I see a mirror
it's always clearer
on rainy days when it hits me even nearer
torwards my heart but I can't stop it's always later never been-

waiter, I'll take my order.
do you want the side of pain or do you want it to go away
the tears say yes but you always smile to fade-
in the crowd you're never loud but internally you scream and shout throughout the drought it's raining now
oh God it's raining now.
on my face but you replace the rain with change and change is bigger now it's strange to see my smile can make or break the lake that streams down my face it's always hate torwards myself and never fate will bring me down because I can never seem to figure out why I'm like this.
I never asked for this.
it's always lies for this
I wish I could die for this.
but the people behind me wouldn't forget this
if they saw what was happening they wouldn't let this go of this and take me to the place they call "home" but I don't even know what home is it's all just a show to me and it's ending man fuck this.
I'm a failure.
and it's not my behavior
that I'm seeing such the traitor in my eyes.
I'm just figuring out my life
I'm trying.
I'm really, trying.

This song is about me, pretty self explanatory hello, I'm a failure, always have, and always will be, but I'm trying to work on that.