Twilight Saga: STAR

~22~

The forks high school graduation I needed this performance I needed to forget about what I learned no one can find out we performed don't You worry for the ceremony

Even after that I needed to get this memory out of my head at the party I stood away from everyone until Alice had a vision
"There coming here"she said
"How many"Jacob said
"An army of new borns"Alice said
"This could be a blood bath" jasper said
"The pack will fight"Jacob said as everyone was taking Mia whispers to  me
"Hey at least we get to kill some vamps right gurl"the word kill it reminds me of my deed my crime I'm a murder I was responsible for the death of three people
I left without a word to rejoin the party I saw someone brought alcohol I grabbed a bottle and started chugging I sat outside where no one could bother me I was drunk off my ass and Mia came down to see me
"So we having a little party out here too"she says holding the empty Bottle of liquor
"I needed to forget something"I slur she helps me stand
"Ok come on let's go maybe you can take some attention off Bella who is so desperately trying to get it"Mia said

"No don't let  me near her I will kill her" I said in a drunk state
"Girl yo ass ain't killing nobody"she scoffed trying to pull me I pull away
"No I will I can I've done it before" i said
"You have never killed anyone"she said I start to cry drunk
"Yes I did"I clutched her jacket she seemed worried now
"Who did you kill?" She asked me I sobbed
"My mother" she seemed shocked "I finally remembered yesterday I've been having dreams about that day and I remember she asked me to give her her medicine and I did and now she's dead I'm sorry" I sobbed into her shirt she was in shock she held me while I cried I stopped crying and she walked me back to Jacob I happily hugged him
"Your really handsome"i slurred
"And your really drunk"he said I laughed intoxicatingly
"Take her home you and me have to talk tomorrow I'll be there early"she told Jacob after that I started to feel tired so I went to sleep in the car
MIA'S POV
I was in shock I cried Star's mom told her to give her drugs the dose of drugs the caused her to get into that car crash that killed my dad and Jacob's mom
I walked to the door and knocked
"Hey"Jacob opens the door
"She still asleep" I asked sitting on the couch
"Yeah it really wasn't like her to get drunk like that she's been acting weird lately and I'm worried" he asked rubbing his face
"Has Star been sleeping good" I ask I need to make sure
"Now that you say it she has been getting up a lot during the night"he said I sighed her dream her memory
"I know why she been acting a mess" Jacob raises his eye brow he sees tears in my eye
"Last night she told me she's been having dreams lately about the day our parents died she told me before her mom drove that day she asked Star to give her, her medicine Star did she drove off and crashed into my dad and your mom... Star is blaming her self for that day... she thinks she killed our parents"Jacob looked heartbroken I could he felt what I felt

Pain Star's pain she has been keeping this dream to herself and then she finds out it was a memory that is so painful it's was killing her slowly
She's blaming her self
"It's no her fault"Jacob said
"I know she didn't know she thought she was helping" I said in tears we went into the bedroom and sat on the bed watching her she stirred awake and looked at us
"Why are y'all staring at me... ow my head what did I do last night" she rubbed her head we sat closer to her
"We know" I said in a sad broken voice
"Know what" she said rubbing her eyes
"The dream?"jacob said stars eyes widened and tears filled  them
"How did you find out"she said in a broken voice like mine
"You told me last night" she broke down we hugged her
"I'm sorry" she sobbed
"It's ain't your fault" I said as tears tans down my face
"You were a kid" Jacob said hugging both of us
"I killed her!i killed them!im a murder!" She screamed I got in front of her face and held it
"Girl look at me ok? You did not buy the drugs you didn't even know what drugs were you didn't know she was high you didn't put her in that car you were not driving you were trying to help your mother ok you are not a murderer" I said she sobbed
"Babe you have been holding this in you should have told us"Jacob said whipping her tears
"I thought you would hate me" she said
"Girl never ok we could never hate you ok now I want you to let this go okay don't carry it around you anymore" she nodded her head and let a few more tears fall
"I'm sorry I've been acting like a bitch" she said I smiled
"I be like that every day so you get a free pass" I say we hug
"Now we have something else we need to focus on... the battle it's in a few days and we need to train so pick up your tits and get ready okay" she nodded and we shared one more group hug
I may have missed out on having a father but I will not blame that on Star she was a kid like I was she is my Bestfriend, my sister, my ride or die no matter what she will always got me