Manariah .
a few weeks later ..
For the past week or so i been feeling really sick and been throwing up every time i eat something .
I asked Kentrell about it and he was just saying i might got food poisoning or i just got a stomach virus .
I asked jaliyah about it since she my big sister and she had these same type of problems and she pregnant and i might think i'm pregnant too.
So yesterday night i came to her and was crying and all because i don't know if i'm ready for a baby and i'm only 17 and i'm finna graduate in 2 months .
I don't wanna feel like a disappointment to my parents because they didn't teach me when i get older spread my legs to somebody and get pregnant and not even graduated nor married .
Me and jaliyah got up around 10 and went to my doctors appointment she signed me up to yesterday night .
" Are you ready to see if you a mom or not ? " jaliyah said all happy .
" I don't know i just don't wanna feel like a disappointment or a hoe" i said on the edge of crying for the 10th time .
She smacked me in the back on my neck. "Dang guh why you smack me fo ? " i said laughing .
" Just for you being a teen mom don't mean you a hoe or disappointment that's a blessing bitch ! so come on and stop bugging my g " she said putting on her shoes .
i started staring at her stomach because she was getting so big and she only 4 months .
"Jaliyah ? " i asked .
" yeah" she said struggling to put on her shoes cause her stomach was in the way. I bent down and helped her finish putting her shoes on.
" how does it feel to be pregnant?" i asked curious.
She stopped what she was doing and stared at me for a second and took a deep breath.
" At first when i found out i was happy/ sad because i didn't know what to do and i'm only 19 years old didn't even get married yet and that's not how mom taught us and i felt the same way u feeling now like a disappointment but when i told mom she was happy for me and she said she always wanted grandchildren. but now with this big ass stomach GIRL i am tired " she said laughing and i joined her.
" I'm kind of scared cause what if something goes wrong , what if i have a miscarriage? That's the scary thing about all of this and you have to be stress free for your whole pregnancy cause you don't wanna lose and stress the baby out ya feel me ? " she added .
I nodded my head taking in everything she had told me .
" Okay enough of the sappy shit , you ready to see if you a mama orrrr " she said nudging me .
" Yeah i'm ready " i said cheesing .
" And when we get from here you need sit down and tell yb bout this cause u know he don't like secrets " she said lowkey laughing and rolling her eyes .
i laughed at the thought of already seeing him yelling at me for not tell him i was even going to see if i was .
*At the doctors appointment *
