this is the story of my love life.

Saturday, December 1, 2018

This is going to be a rant about my love life. it is quite interesting to say the least.

it begins with me and this guy... were calling him luke. even tho that isn't his name.

luke and I have been talking since January of 2016. nothing went down until July of 2018 when he took my virginity.

that night changed me. ever since id say august of 2017, I've been in love with him. but losing my virginity to a fuck like him really tied the knot.

he's a hoe at my school and fucks everyone. but I let him get to me.

he's been fucking me off and on for a little while. we have only done it 4 times tho.

my friend just told me that he has been hanging with a girl at this basketball game. i know they hang out and fuck because you don't just hang out with luke.

i can't get over how much of a bad person he is to me. after we fuck he talks to me for a day or so then leaves me. then comes back, asks to fuck, i say yes because i can't help myself, then leaves.

this is a toxic relationship. it's hurting me so much. as i write this i sob and listen to sad songs.

makes me question why i even try to get is attention at school. or why he makes my heart race. or why I am unconditionally in love with him?