I can't.

Chapter 4

Eleanor's P.O.V

I hear the light pitter patter of the rain hitting the window as I wake up. My body is frozen under the sheets, making me shiver. Why is it so cold? I slide out of bed, literally, and see the long white curtains dancing. To my surprise, the window's broken, all of it. I furrow my eyebrows, running into the hall to check that window. Same. Memories of last night hit my mind, causing me to shudder with uncomfortableness . I'm all sniffly and my throat hurts because I'm wearing nothing but one of Jason's black t-shirts. Jason.

"Jason?" I call out, wondering where he is. I go downstairs and try to look for him, but a note on the kitchen counter catches my eye.

El, I had to leave immediately. No questions. I don't know why I'm writing this because I'll most likely be back before you wake up. I love you, kitten. -J

Hm. K. It's 12:58 and no ones here. I don't think Jason would be so careless to leave me here all alone with wide open windows. I quickly run upstairs and get some socks and back downstairs, flopping on the couch, the memories once again coming to my mind from yesterday.

" What h-happened Jason?" I choke out.

"You don't need to know now kitten, just know you will forever be safe with me." I don't know if I still hate him. And he hasn't lashed out on me or punished me in a while. Well, he is my kidnapper and I will forever hate him. But deep inside me this tiny little spark is there when he says my name. No Eleanor, you hate him. 

"Kitten?" I hear someone faintly call from the door. My head shoots up, interrupting my deep thinking. My lips curve and I run to Jason like a little kid running to open presents on Christmas morning.

"Jason!" I jump and wrap my legs around him, making him stumble back a little, chuckling.

"Your awake. I hoped I'd be back before you noticed I was gone." He stated, sitting me on the couch and taking his red, matte Suprahs off by the door.

"Yeah about that, you left me alone with the windows all broken and events from last night fresh in my mind and zero safety whatsoever and danger swirling around the house!" I raised my voice a little.

"Do not raise your voice at me, Eleanor Brooks. You do not know why I left. You are not involved in the reason why I left. You do not disrespect me, or my work. Now enough of this childish act!" He escalated his voice and at the end and exploded. He was breathing heavily and his hands were tight around my wrists, pressed up against my chest. My eyes wide with fear, my breathing also heavy, and anxiety, and panic attacks all came. I started wiggling and freaking out.

"K-Kitten. Hey, shhh, it's okay, baby whats going on?" He gently said. I escaped from his tight grip and ran upstairs, almost tripping. I ran into the bathroom and slammed the door close.

"Hey El! Open the door baby! Im sorry!! What going on, El!" He pounded on the door. My mind swirled and my heart beat escalated. Jason's pounding didn't help.

Oh no.