I have a weird feeling in my stomach, you know the ones that make you feel butterflies? That's sadly how at the moment. I don't really believe in god, but sometimes I wonder if there's a higher being. I mean how could life align itself so perfectly? I'm currently sitting on my couch watching interviews of 5SOS cause they're my dads, and I'm thinking about how I'm falling, and I'm falling hard.
There's this guy that makes me feel special, someone who I can't even talk to without smiling like an idiot. He stays up late to talk to me on the phone, and is constantly there for me. He knows when to ask questions, but also knows my limit.
Staying up till 3am talking about our aspirations and traveling to remote places in Europe. Late night drives and neon lights. Horror movies and leather jackets. Loud concerts and bloody knuckles.
I've already let him in, but I'm scared that one day it'll be too much for him. He says it won't, but no one can predict the future. I know that if I tell him everything, he will run away. I know he's worth it, fuck he's so worth it. But still I'm scared I'll make the wrong decision.
But i'm willing to take the risk. He deserves the risk.
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cherry baby || J.M.
FanfictionCan we act like we use to act? Sing the songs only you and I know. Go places we found together. Sitting around just enjoying each other's company. But the past is the past. I'm now listening to music that matches my feelings. I miss the way...
