I wake up to my neck being tickled.
"What are you doing?" I ask jack
"Just kissing your neck a little." Huh alright. Kinda feels nice.
I move so I can kiss him back. We start kissing and holding each other tight and kissing and holding. After a few minutes I decide to be a bit playful. While were in the middle of a very passionate kiss I stick my tongue out, touch his lips with it and quickly retract.
"Ooooohh you wanna play that game? alright I'll join." he then sticks his whole tongue out and licks the whole left side of my cheek.
"EW!!" Not even literal
"You're so gross oh my gosh. Nasty eeeeewwwww!" Jack mimics a preppy kind of girl with a high pitched voice. Cute
"What day is it?" I ask. I've lost track. That's what he's done to me
"I have NO clue." he's lost too...
I check my phone. 12 texts, 3 missed calls. Oops my bad.
2 called from my close friend, we'll call her Shock. 9 of those 12 texts are from her too. 2 from an old friend, she's called two-faced back stabbing bitch. (Ktc for short) 1 from my other friend, Barrel. And the other call from another friend named Dorris. I guess my friends care.
I read the messages first
From Shock:
"Hey my main squeeze what's up!?"
"Dude you mad?" 2 hours after the first one
"I hope you're not mad at me! I LOVE YOU!!!"
And others like that
From Barrel:
"We're worried about you. Text me when you're not dead. love you"
From Ktc:
"Hey oogie and I love each other and he says I'm not allowed to be friends with you anymore-" like you ever were "-he's upset about what happened between you two-" the fuck?! make it sound like I did the wrongs here! "-I'm sorry I hope this all can be water under the bridge. We were such good friends and I'd hate to throw that away."
WHAT THE FUCK?!?! Ok first off she dates him as I'm dating him and spread rumors about me. Worst friend ever! She makes it sound like it's all my fault oogie is a dick to me. Well she does believe he's innocent, a saint practically. Then she wonders why I'm depressed and cut myself. Hmmm I'm so confused as to why? is it because I'm treated poorly? oh wait no I'm not treated that way, I treat him that way. That's right I forgot.
I feel hot anger tears run down my face. I think Jack notices because he grabs onto me and holds me so tight. Not bone crushing but a warm embrace that says "hey I love you, ok"
He just holds me as I cry and cry. He's wonderful
"Dear?"
"Yes jack?"
"I promise one day I'll be able to take away all the pain he's caused you and replace it with beautiful memories of us and the happiest times you've ever had. I'll give you so much. I'll give you everything you deserve. So basically the whole universe. I love you so very much and nothing can or will ever change that you're kinda stuck with me now because the truth is I need you. I love you. You are beautiful, you take my fucking breath away no one compares to you. I'd do anything for you, I trust you, I'm comfortable around you yet nervous at the same time, I always think about you, and am always wondering how I can be better for you. You make me laugh and you make me ever so happy. I love you with every fiber and essence that is myself, I love you to the point where I cannot explain it because words couldn't do justice. I'll always be by your side and support you through everything. All I want now is to keep you happy, safe, and make you feel loved constantly. I cannot imagine what it would be like without you now you saved me darling I owe my happiness to you and will give you all of my heart. I'll get rid of him I promise. I love you too much to allow him to control you still."
