Falling In Love With My Principal?? Taekook/Vkook

20.

Warning this chapter mentions suicidal thoughts

Jungkook POV

The past few weeks you'd been feeling really sad and you didn't know how to express it. You thought it was just a phase but as the days kept going on you felt more and more sad.

You decided to talk to Taehyung about it but you weren't 100% sure how to approach the topic. You walked up to Taehyung as he was sitting on the couch reading.

Jungkook: Hyung can we talk about something really serious?

Taehyung: Sure babe. Whats wrong.

Jungkook: I don't exactly know how to say this but, for the past few weeks I've been feeling really sad.

Taehyung: Sad like how?

Jungkook: Depressed like sad.

Taehyung: W-why do you feel d-depressed.

Jungkook: I feel like I was only put on earth as a disappointment. Like my parents always abused me and told me I was worthless and that I was a mistake. I feel like everyone hates me. Like it'd be better if I wasn't here, everyone would finally be happy. Everywhere I go I always cause trouble. When Sehun raped me I had no one to go to because my parents would only congratulate me probably saying something like 'way to go son you finally got some. But you're still a disgrace to this family.' I was s-so scared and had nowhere to go, and no one to go to. And even now I feel like I'm just dragging you into my pathetic life. Like you'd look so much better with someone else. Someone who's better looking, not, a crybaby, someone who wasn't raised as trash but actually apart of their family. Even with my other hyungs I still feel like if I wasn't there they'd all be happy because they wouldn't have this annoying pest around them all the time annoying them with my life problems. I just feel like I should die. I'm sure no one would even care that I was gone. If I were you guys I'd throw a party to celebrate me out of your lives. I-it'd just be better if I died. And ask the time I get flashbacks of the time he raped me to times when I was emotionally, mentally, and physically abused. When i was younger I was bullied a lot and my bullies would pay people to become my friend just for me to find out that it was a prank and I'd end up hurt again. I a-almost killed myself before I moved here because the voices in my head were telling me that it would be the easiest way for me to keep people out of my pathetic life. Right now I'm dip scared that my patent are going to find me or that I will run into Sehun on a day when you're not there and he'll do something to hurt me. At school people call me names like slut, gold digger, worthless, and whore. I even get death threats in my locker and I'm constantly picked on. I don't even know why I'm telling you all this, I'm just bringing you into my useless life once again.

Taehyung just started at you with sympathy and worry. But the whole time you were talking he didn't say a word and let you let out all your pent up emotions.

Taehyung: Jungkook-ah let me tell you something, you are my beautiful boyfriend who I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. Someone better. I could never leave you for someone better because there is no one better than you for me. Your hyungs and I....we love you more than you could ever imagine. Baby boy I thought I told you that we would be your family. Why didn't you tell us that you were feeling this way? I thought you could trust us?

Jungkook: I didn't know how to tell you guys and i thought that you wouldn't even care that I was feeling down. I'm sorry hyung I let my emotions get the best of me again.

(So i just realized that in the first chapter i made it to where Jungkooks mom woke him up but lets act like that was a friend who he was staying with who was like a mother figure to him. ugh this story is such a mess.)