Today, you smiled while telling me about your day
When the realization hit me
That I believe I could fall in love again
This fact terrifies me
It's been 3 years
And I don't know if what we had could be called love
But the way you ended things hurt me
More than you could ever imagine
But I believe I could fall in love again
This terrifies me
You were my princess
I was your fairy
We were so little
So innocent and sweet for each other
But you were straight
And I was a one-time thing
But I believed I was in love
So, I persisted
And that terrified me
I was okay being a one-time thing
We were young and easy to influence
You still cared what your mother thought of you
I tried to fall out of love with you
But then you dated my sister
And that hurt me
You can see why I'm terrified of being in love with you again
We only really started talking again this year
I sat in the back of the room in English class
We got paired in yearlong groups
And you were the only person I was slightly comfortable being around
Even after years of nothing, you are still who I seek in every room
I now sit in the front
I don't have to, but I do
Just to turn around and use your desk
You told me you liked when I did this
