Listen to my Voice

Falling Apart

AUTHORS NOTE!

This really isn't a poem. I really don't know what it is except a part of my voice. And I appreciate you listening(reading really)

I don't understand. We're falling apart. I can't stop it. I'm so.... Just. Sad. I can't do it. I can't lose my angel. You gave me a miracle, yet he's so far away from me. So it's happening. It's crumbling beneath me as he walks away. they say I'm too young to be so tied down. I've never wanted anything more in my life. I don't wanna give up. But I feel like there's no other choice. Should I go, so he can be happy or should I stay and endure the pain I put not only on myself but on him. The one I love. Is it right? I don't know what to do. I.. I need help. I don't want to hurt him. I feel like I'm no longer the reason for his happiness. For his smile. Are we staying only for the reason of fearing we'll not find another? Or for the reason of not realizing that happiness is only our goal and that this is no longer? I believe he is the only reason for my smile or positive attitude. I feel as if nothing at this moment will be ok. That everything is crashing and falling from under my very foot. That life as I once knew it, terrorizing pains of nothing but hatred and misjudgment of light and dark, pain of knowing only foreign substance to be my only hope, knowing that no goal of mine should ever be spoke aloud for the doubts of achieving in any way, was back for my soul. My once innocent soul, painted black by the devil himself, had let god touch his light to, but was being grasped by the hand of evil again. A once beautiful world turned into a dark scary place again, no bird to create a song of beauty or breeze to gently sway the tall gracious tree, no laughter of playful children, no beat to fall in line with my aching heart. For no longer does my love feel the strength from my soul, nor the love that coats my words. My love feels no longer the warmth of me by his side, nor the breath of life I once breathed. My love feels the sad beat of my heart and the sorrow filled tears in my eyes. He feels slowly the grasp of my hands loosen and my once love filled soul slip away with the beat of my heart.