Forbidden Shadows

Memories

A.N: this is part of her lost memories that she is just now getting back. Not all of her lost memories are going to be exposed as well as the recovered memories that she is currently obtaining at the moment such as her memories of Javion, she will have them next chapter though. The decision of writing her full memories or just be lazy is still somewhat iffy sorry. And the chapter will be short.

A year ago

"Run...rUn...RUN!" My mother calls right before the men kill her in front of my very eyes. I take off running into the dark, shady forest. I ran even faster when I heard the men calling after me and the close footsteps. All of a sudden, I'm wrapped into giant arms that pull me into the shadows of the forest. As soon as I felt them around me, I close my eyes, trying my best to get out of the persons hold. "Calm down, its me. Your safe." A familiar voice whispered. Once I realized it was Javion a sense of relief flooded over me, washing out the fear. I cuddled deeper into his warm embrace which he noticed. "It's okay baby girl." He whispered down at me and kissed my cheek.

Suddenly, there were loud footsteps and I was soon separated from my mate. He fought off the guys who had me and told me to run, that Daniel would be at the harbor, waiting for me. I wanted to stay with him and fight the men off of him but I knew I would be a distraction so I ran, full of regret. I ran as fast as I could, ignoring the burn in my muscles and lungs and the pulsing headache. I ran hard and fast, knowing that the quicker i get to safety, the quicker Javion can come back to me.

Just as he said, Daniel and his car was waiting for me at the restaurant called the Harbor. I hopped on the passenger side quickly, wrapping myself in the blanket that was laying on the seat. The engine suddenly roared to life and I soon realized that Daniel was about to leave. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I screamed as I attempt to pull his hands away from the engine. "I'm leaving." He stated coldly as our handles scramble for control. "Not without Jay!! We have to wait for him." Tears began to swell in my eyes at the thought of leaving my mate with those monsters.

What if he dies? What if he gets hurt? What if he can't find me? Daniel pushes me back to my side with a bit of force, hitting my head in the process. He said nothing, not even looking me in the face as he swerved away. I had a pulsing head ache and there was warm blood trickling down the side of my head but I didn't really care. The pain of being separated from my mate was worse. Tears swelled up in my eyes and fell silently as I bit on my lower lip to hold back the sobs that threatened to escape. "Please. Daniel please." I cried and pleaded to him which didn't do anything. My voice started to get weaker and the pain was becoming greater.

My body went limp for a second, causing me to fall back into my seat. The car suddenly stopped on the side of the road before Daniel turned to me, worry in his eyes. "Angélicà. Wake up. " he roughly shook my body, trying to get me to open my eyes. Anger surged through me.

"Now you care?! What happens to that care when you pulled off?! When you left my mothers dead body and my mate who was fighting for life? What happened to that care when I was growing up thinking that my father was dead? When you ignored my phone calls, my letters, my cries!"I went off and honestly didn't care at this point.

"DON'T FUCKING ACT LIKE YOU CARE NOW YOU BITCH OF A FATHER! YOU LEFT MY MATE TO DIE. YOU WON'T EVEN SPARE ME NOT A DAMN GLANCE WHILE IM SITTING HERE BEGGING YOU TO SAVE MY FUCKING LIFE." He looked at me with shock at what I just said which caused me to mentally scoff. I wanted to rub it in his face that he'd ripped me away from my mate.

I knew I was overreacting as I believe in Jay's ability to be my knight in shining armor and save me when I least expect it but it could take months or years before he can get away from those people and why would I wait that long for my baby.

"Yea, you heard it right. My mate is my fucking life bruh. Ain't no type of living without my baby. I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR FAKE ASS CONCERN AND CARE, SHOULD HAVE TRIED WHEN I WAS YOUNG, CRYING FOR A FATHER TO LOVE ME." I sobbed and screamed, saying what's deep in my heart.

There was a sudden sting on my cheek. The realization hit me just as hard as he did when I realized that he'd slapped me. He couldn't even react, only sitting quietly with regret and sorrow on his face as he stared at his hand. "You must really hate me...you hate me so much that you want to kill my mate, knowing that it will kill me. I feel suffocated with just the site of you!" I croaked.
"FUCK BRUH." I sobbed in frustration as I punched the dashboard repeatedly.

I was sobbing so hard that I was literally choking and unable to breathe. I felt helpless, useless, I felt like giving up which is exactly what I did. He'd left my determination, my pride, my whole being behind when he left my mate behind. Laying my head into the seat, I close my eyes, trying to stop the water works and stayed that way for quite a while to even out my breathing. Maybe if I can escape, I can...no.

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We had arrived to the house after several hours. The whole time, I haven't said a word. Even as we got out the car and walked into the mansion, I was silent and empty. Daniel showed me my room without looking at me. "If your hungry I can cook." He offered in which I said nothing in reply. There was a sad smile on his face when he walked out, leaving behind a rose gold iPhone and 2 oval clear gel pills that sat beside a water bottle that he informed me I had to take since I got hurt.

I laid in the bed and sat there for a good 5 hours. The pain in my head began to throb and pulse and my vision began to blur. The light was hurting my eyes so I closed them and went to go turn the light off. There was a shaking sound that came from the bottle cap and 2 capsules that fingers were touching when I reached the desk beside the door. That must be the medicine. I quickly pop the two pills in my mouth and swallowed some water to wash it down. Once I was done, I found the light switch and shut it off, turning the iPhones camera on so that I didn't run into anything on my way back to the bed.

My eyelids began to feel heavy and soon, I was wrapped in a deep sleep.