Whatever the day seems to you
It is another day
Another battle,
Another sad day
Another day to live
A life so full of shit
Battles to fight everyday
I was given a chance to taste what death feels like
But it never took me
My mind is tired of functioning
Trying to explore other stuff
Its does
Trying to sleep it threatens
I go a bit crazy
Then the mind remembers its still young
It forces itself up again
I wonder why my heart doesn't tire
Why it doesn't threaten to stop beating
That would be better
Then I would finally go away
The body will be left
For those who wanna cry over it
For those who wanna mourn
But if the brain chooses to tire up completely
Then no one will cry
They'll all run
Run from a crazy person
Yet they made me what I am
Two organs that can completely change
Change the way they see you
Change the relationship
Broken mirrors
Broken thoughts
Let's hope the mind stays calm
Let's hope you'll stay with me still
Let's hope the heart chooses to tire first
Let's hope for the worst
Let's just hope
Or let's just stop and stare
Watch and silence our mouths
Let's just keep silent
This are the words of pain
The words of broken minds
The words I would feel happy about
Later
Later when all is done
The words that will remind me of my strength
Of my weakness
Of my struggle
Words of lost hope
Words of pain
A pain only I can understand
A pain only I embrace
A pain only I can't control
A pain so painful that it has painted itself on my face
Painted with thick brush
For everyone to see
For everyone to look at
For others to admire
For others to laugh about
For others to sympathise
For others to ignore
A pain I have to feel alone
A pain to inspire my writing
A pain only I understand
This is me
This is Tesla
This is Maureen
This is all *me*
©Maureen njoki
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#painisallover
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