not yet. [vmin]

chapter 4

taehyung sighed and grabbed his front hair, stressed. it had been a couple of minutes since jungkook left his room and taehyung was still against the wall, sitting down. he sat there for a while until he heard a notification bell from his phone. he stood up and reached for his phone seeing a message from jimin.

[text message]
jimin: hey we need to talk
taehyung: yeah, last night was kinda of a lot
jimin: should i come to your room?
taehyung: no it's fine, ill come into yours
jimin: okay

taehyung threw on his leather jacket and starting walking over to jimins room which was a couple of feet away. his hands was casually in his pocket as he walked down when he heard thumping noises coming from namjoons room. taehyung leaned his head on his front door in curiosity when he suddenly heard screaming?

nope, it was just moaning.

taehyung rolled his eyes and muttered,
"who the fuck smashes this early in the morning?"
suddenly a soft and rusty voice replies to taehyung from behind, making him slightly jump from shock,
"apparently namjoon and jin hyung."
taehyung turned around to see yoongi who was casually standing there, holding a bucket of ice.
"hyung, you scared me, what are you doing out here?"
yoongi walks past taehyung unlocking the door from across namjoon's.
"went to go get ice, why are you out here? isn't your room all the way over there?" yoongi points in the opposite direction
"i'm visiting jimin."
yoongi opens his hotel room and nods his head,
"ah i see, ok. well i'll see you later."
taehyung waved his hand and waited until yoongi's door fully closed and continued to walk toward jimins room.

he finally arrived at jimins door and knocked a couple of times when it swung open with jimin ready to greet taehyung.
"hey taehyung,"
taehyung gave a small smile instead of replying and walked directly into jimins room. it was awkward, especially because of what happened last night, and so taehyung chuckled breaking the silence,
"why is your room bigger than mine, i'm suing."
jimin giggled and shut the door,
"not if i sue first."
taehyung sat down on the bed and raised his eyebrow,
"oh really? what exactly are you going to sue me for mr. jimin?"
jimin put his index finger up to his chin and sarcastically commented,
"umm i don't know maybe because you kissed me all of a sudden."
jimin said this to continue the joke but it became silent after.
jimin groaned and slapped his palm on his forehead,
"ugh sorry that's not what i meant."
taehyung awkwardly replied making jimin a little less uncomfortable,
"it's okay, i mean that's why i came over right? you know to talk about what happened last night."
jimin sat down with taehyung and without hesitation spoke up,
"why did you leave last night? because of it, i couldn't think of anything else except what that kiss meant. i mean i understand why you did it you were sad and confuse-"
taehyung stopped jimin knowing he would soon go too far with the assumptions,
"jimin, i don't know what went through my head last night. i didn't have anyone else, i guess you were just comforting me and it was the perfect time?"
taehyung looked down and started to fiddle his fingers like the night before,
"i stopped myself."
those words still didn't exactly fit in jimins head, he didn't understand.
"stop yourself from doing what?"
"from having sex with you jimin!"
jimin slightly got taken back by the sudden yelling but placed his hands on taehyung's hands stopping him from fiddling with them.
"it would've been okay."
taehyung couldn't help but form tears in his eyes, and so he whimpered,
"no it wouldn't. jimin, i would have used you. used you for my sadness, for my frustration. at that time it felt good, it felt safe, but it's not ... right. you're my best friend, i can't think of you like that."
jimin took a breath and spoke up but let out a stutter,
"so, what are you g-going to do now?"
taehyung didn't move his eyes from off the floor, afraid to see jimin in the eyes. he just whispered,
"i don't know. i really don't k-know."
taehyung fell back letting his back hit the bed, facing the ceiling, he sighed,
"i really regret all the shit i did with jungkook. but he keeps playing around with me and my emotions... it's like- i feel so weak. i always give in and i- i cant control myself, he makes me feel nice, but i know it's not right. i like it when he plays with my hair or i like it when he gives me that comforting smile but he can't think of me more than a friend with a benefit... and jimin that's why i don't want to do that to you. i cant hurt you, not like he's doing to me." jimin stood up in realization and smiled trying to cover his feelings,
"hey taehyung? don't worry about me. worry about yourself."
taehyung boosted up back into his sitting position and looked straight into jimin and spoke,
"thanks jimin. and i'm sorry. im sorry that i did that. i don't know what's wrong with me, you know, you'd be so much better for me..." he snickered,
"but we both know, you wouldn't like a person like me."