The Pain of the Demon Wolf (Hiatus)

Meeting FairyTail

* 5 years later* Diamond Pov

It has been 5 years since I seen the people that abused me I escaped it was a really hard task but I did it I have been with Cait shelter with Wendy and Carla It took Wendy awhile but She Remembered me she was so happy to see me but questioned my condition she asked me why I looked that way I told her nothing and it stayed that way Carla questioned the way I looked in human and Wolf form but Wendy didn't let her even tho deep down I was a wreak with depression Self-harm and anxiety also panic attacks all which stopped me from doing the impossible until I met them on the mission with the Oracion Seis.

I was told this guild had one very Destructive Dragonslayer they called him Salamander because of his scarf and I seen him with my own eyes it was so true after the chief told Wendy the truth she cried and this women named Erza comforted her and all I did was stare this mission reminded me why I have to hide my true identity from the new guild of which I was joining we got there and a brawl was just starting for some random reason and a table was thrown at Wendy I jumped in front and pushed the table back and stood in front of the person that threw it.

I growled ready to rip his throat like my true nature he backed away slowly Erza just walked to the master and introduced us we were told that a woman named Mirajane would put our new guild mark on she also introduced herself gave us are guild marks and walked back to the bar all I wanted to do was find a apartment so I could be alone with no other females in site this girl named Lucy helped me do that and I did after awhile she showed me around Magnolia and told me that I could have gotten a room in the female dorm but I didn't care as long as I had a space to release my true pain and from that is all that matters we went back to the guild and all I did was sitting at a table waiting.

For a chance to leave unnoticed sadly that chance never came I was forced to watch them eat drink and make merry in all one day it was sicking and tiresome just staring at them be happy made me want to go on a rampage to me it looked like they have never seen true pain nor a scar that lasts forever or blood all which made my heart race and all my emotional pain shine what did I do I ran home and cried and started having an attack was this panic or anxiety I did not care but soon it put me to sleep the next thing I knew it was the day after yesterday I lay there for a minute to bring myself together after that I did my routine and went to the guild ready for what awaited me I pushed open the doors and guess what .

I saw Grey and Natsu the salamander fighting to me it was not at all funny nor entertaining it was what made my emotions the way they are now broken lifeless this is how I truly am as a wolf and human, I will never forget what I went through the pain the suffering the anguish and the blood I watch be shed on my behalf this is why I am this way I am a wolf with bark and angry bites before I knew it tables were thrown at me and I didn't care because it felt like I deserved it after I got up Ezra made everyone apologize to me but it didn't work because I did the most unimaginable thing .

I Growled and panicked all at the same time this was not a good time to be around people why because I could lash out at any time so I did the best Thing I knew how to do I ran out of the guild as fast as lighting I could smell that they were behind me calling my name especially Natsu and Grey they were saying "I am so sorry " they both said will running Wendy was with Carla in the air trying to catch up with me I know what your thinking I panicked on the Outside right oh no I just panicked on the inside.

I ran to my house and locked the doors and windows and went to my room to have my attack I was holding it as soon as I hit the bed I had It feels like I am dying and losing my breath so I added Cake to the icing and cut my human skin in which I was in that current form I did it until I could not feel that emotion called panic and pain I heard them knock one time and then leave that let me know that they gave up on me I know they will be asking tomorrow why I did that and all I will do is leave them in silence like I always do and go on a job alone just to be the wolf I am I slowly got up and took a shower after that I went under my covers and rested soon enough it was the next day and it repeated itself.