I sit here, watching the playful sky, as white puffy clouds drift from here to there.
I lett the shape they make fill my mind.
Yes I'm thinking of you.
Who else??
A cool breeze is
blowing causing the ends of my hair to delicately tickle my face.
As if the wind itself was greeting me hello.
Comforting me with its playful ways.
Just like you used to.
A small smile plays on my lips when I remember your silly ways.
I close my eyes as my lungs breath in the calm and serenity that the blowing breeze brings with its presents.
I welcome the peaceful calmness.
For it has been a while.
But it doesn't last.
A single tear escapes my eyes and runs down my cheek,
As the memories of you come rushing back to me in hurtful waves of pain
I quickly wipe it away.
Not wanting to embrace the Pain and Hurt the memory of you brings.
But it's too late.
Pain is already back.
Never even left.
Just temporarily forgotten.
No! ...
Only temporarily replaced by the memory of your smiling face.
That smile...
That smile that used to bring me such joy and happiness...
Now only brings sorrow
Sorrow that lets me know that this isn't a bad dream.
But instead something much worse...
It let's me know this is Reality.
Reality....
Reality that your lips no longer smile at me.
Reality that your face no longer radiate the happiness you would share.
Reality that your deep blue eyes no longer gleam with the joy and wonder of life.
Instead thoses wondrous eyes are closed.
Never to open again.
Your face and lips are set in a never changing pose.
I miss your smile...
I would have said you were mearly sleeping, but you and I both know that that's not true.
So here I am.
Sitting.
Not seeming to find the strength to leave.
So wait for me at heavens gate my love
I promise you, I won't be long
You left me here in this world alone.
But I shall not leave you.
I love you.
