BOLD= ALEX KAREV
REGULAR=IZZIE STEVENS
Chapter one: Tension
I had agreed to meet Izzie for coffee. As much as I would have just preferred she never came back, she was back and there was nothing I could do about it. She couldn’t have come at a worse time. It had taken me so long to get over her leaving. So long. And I’ve never been able to open up to anyone like I could with Izzie. That is until she left.
If it weren’t for the fact that I had some unanswered questions as well as the fact that I needed her to see how angry I was with her unexpected return, than I would not have wanted to meet with her at all. I walked into the cafe and bought a coffee and sat down at a table. If she shows, she shows. I’m not going to freakin’ beg to speak with her. I can’t even believe this crap…Izzie’s back. Right when I think I may have my freakin’ happy ending, Izzie comes and throws me in a freakin’ whirwind.
I had been checking my phone constantly ever since Alex said we could meet up for coffee. When the phone finally buzzed, I practically jumped out of my skin in nerves and excitement. It had been so long since I had seen him, and yet his face had never left my thoughts. I had been telling people that I came back to Seattle Grace for the fellowship program, which was at least partly true, it was an excellent hospital. But really, it was Alex I came back for. I would have gone to Seattle Grace if it was the worst hospital in the country.
It had taken me a long time to figure it out, but I knew it now. Nothing in the world mattered but him. I could only hope that there was still a chance for us. I knew I had screwed up, unbelievably so. But maybe I could find a way to make it right.
I took a deep breath as I finally read the details of his text. He wanted to meet now?! But I hadn’t had time to prepare! I ran a hand anxiously through my hair, hoping that it looked at least semi-decent today.
I swallowed hard and made my way to the cafeteria, my feet carrying me as my mind spun, and I reached the doors without even knowing how I got there. I stepped through, and bought a muffin quickly at the bakery before finally turning to the tables and looking for Alex.
My eyes fell upon him instantly, as if drawn to him, and for a moment time froze and I couldn’t breathe. I put a bright smile on my face as I walked over to him, hoping I didn’t seem too nervous. My heart was racing by the time I finally sat down across from him, leaving the muffin on the table as my hands twisted anxiously in my lap.
“Hi, Alex,” I breathed, unable to take my eyes off of him. It had been so long since I had seen him, and the visions that haunted my dreams were never enough. “Thanks for agreeing to meet with me.”
Mhmm.” I nod. I still can’t believe she’s here. Izzie is back. I don’t know how long it will take before I get it through my thick head. I don’t know what to say, and we sit there in awkward silence for a few minutes. She’s smiling though, same bright and shiny Izzie that I remember.
She’s looking at me and my brain sends me back to the good times. And I start to get drawn into the familiarity of sitting with her. I get sent back to when we were happy and in love before she left…Then I remember why I’m angry. She freakin left me.
I grunt, “So…you’re back….” It took every fiber in my being to not just push my chair out, stand up, and walk away. Maybe then she would feel a tiny inkling of how I felt. Izzie had no idea how badly she messed me up. I was a freakin mess for months…and the fear of opening up to someone just to have them walk out on you…well I carried that with me to this day. And it was her fault.
