h a p p i n e s s

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bus ride, bell rings.
i bet ur getting tired of hearing the same thing over and over again. Imagine living through it.
i hate it. when you're sitting in class. And all of a sudden you hear ur name. You're too shy to answer...you stutter...look around the room. and finally. you say the answer. everyone's laughing at you...while ur as red as a cherry. yeah...i'm that cherry. god.

2 months later.........
*NEW TEXT MESSAGE*

(you're bsf) - "hey what's up?"

Me- "oh nothing..."

(you're bsf)- "ik somethings wrong just tell me"

me-"ok well...."

do you ever hide that you're upset so the people you love can be happy?
i hide my feelings all the time it takes a lot to get me to cry at school so if you see my cry at school you know somethings up. I have a lot of people that are there for me. I just don't realize it all the time. Today was different. I realized how many people cared and loved me...i tend to push people away...i don't know why but it just happens.
I get home. I stand in front of a mirror...
"you're beautiful. you may not always see it. but you are you always will be whether you think it or not." i say i eventually start to love myself i still have mental breakdowns a lot and strsss but i'm pretty good besides that. Maybe things are starting to change?...