Struggling for things, without heart and feelings suffer from the silent darkness... feeling isolated with walls around me, looking for curtain things make it easier to live.
Without awareness it's lying in a box right behind me, it's just staring at me, looking if I shuold or not. Give me one reason to not do it it's a great opportunity moments like this.
My mind says yes and my heart say no, which will win mind or heart let's find out this mysterious feeling and explore a new dimension of life, perhaps there something positive about this?! ... no it's all dark and empty like my life and my feeling there nobody who love me for that person I have become, I'm asking for help and aid, for my behaviour and mindset, I haven't got any help and I'm feeling so hopeless and there no absolutely reason too live right now...
I'm all alone
