Iridescent[Jonathan Stark]

Wake me up

Alicia.POV

I look at the guy next to my sister he looks shock when i asked him who he was whats his problem. Whats wrong with her? He asks I can her the anger in his voice. We believe she may be suffering from post traumatic amnesia. The nurse says before anyone could guess what happened next the guy grabbed the nurse by the collar and raised him at least two feet of the ground. What kinda of bullshit excuse is that tell me what wrong with her God damn it tell me? He yelled at the nurse making me jump at his voice. Wanda grab the guy by his shirt pulling him back from the nurse. Jonathan leave now, Go! Wanda says to him he storms off leaving me and Wanda and the nurse. Who pissed in his fruit loops? I ask sarcastically to her she rolls her eyes hugging me like it was the last thing she will ever hug. I'm happy your here. She says still hugging me. Why am i here? I ask her she pulls back. You got killed ultron he tried to kill Jonathan you took the bullet don't you remember it? She asks me what the hell is an ultron and i git killed then why am i still breathing. Then why am i still alive i should be six feet under? i ask her she turns to the nurse i turn to them to. Dr helen cho was able to remake the tissue that was lost when you took the bullet and with the prosses of takeing the shot you had been diagnosis with Post traumatic amnesia your memories will come back it will just take awhile a month or a year maybe you will be lucky if a week. they say so i basically cant remember anything from before and i might not be able ever. Is there anyway to i dont know trigger it if possible? i ask them. If you say its so. they say before walking away. Wheres pietro? I ask her i just wanna hug my brother maybe have him make me laugh. Wanda faces goes down I feel my blood boil and my eyes change color. Wanda where is my brother? I ask her angry I feel my hands building up with up ice. I wanna see him take me to him right now Damn it Wanda please. I say to her I can hear the ice cracking below me as the anger inside me slowly boiled. Alicia I'm sorry he's gone I'm sorry. Wanda says her voice breaking I hear the words I never wish I would hear I feel my heart sink to my stomach my fire the reason I was able to withstand the experiments I feel the tears come out my eyes, I feel them freeze against my skin I drop to my knees sobbing uncontrollably as wanda holds me rubbing my back I was supposed to be the one who protected him I could have saved him. I scream letting everything out its Starks fault my brother is dead.

I sit in the avengers gym staring out the window over the now dark new York city. I came down here to throw ice daggers at the wall it helps calm my nerves and let's you blow off steam. I wish I could just remember something from before anything like a little fragment of something. The sound of punching and grunting cuts my thought, who the hell is up this late it's like midnight, I get up from my spot on the floor quietly and walk over to the elevator hiding behind it making sure whoever is up doesn't see me, it's Jonathan he's working out punching a punching bag, Wanda told me everything about him like how me and him were into each other but then I died. I watch as he punches it over and over again fluently and swiftly he doesn't have a shirt on he is built well he's very attractive I can tell he is Starks son, I feel my cheeks heat up as he stops and takes off his gloves. I look away from him I feel something warm in my stomach. I turn back to see he is not there well he couldn't have left I'm right in front of the elevator I turn away only to have someone put there hand over my mouth I scream as I can't see who they are. Hey, hey it's just me. I hear it's Jonathan I look up at him taking his hand off my mouth. Don't scare me like that white boy jezz. I say to him I press the elevator button to close the door he steps in before it could close on him an uncomfortable silence fills the air as it goes down. Look I get it if you don't wanna talk but you don't have to stalk me while I work out. He says I look at him he has a goofy grin on his face I roll my eyes boys I look away from him. Why are you up so late. I ask him watching the elevator number slowly move. I couldn't sleep you? He asks me he probably already knows. No reason. I say emotionless I hear the elevator making a loud buzzing sound I look down at the buttons to see his hand on the stop switch why the yell did he do that. Are we not gonna just gonna ignore the big ass elephant in the room okay I'm sorry about what happened it's my fault I should have been the one who took the shot. He says his voice mixing of both anger and sadness. Jesus this what this about God grow up so what it happened the old me was blinded by love or whatever shit it was and now because of my stupidity my brother is dead and now I'm brain dead and everything is so fucked up and all you can say is your sorry. I say to him angry my fist balled up I'm step closer to his face. Do you think I asked for this to be labeled as stark and have the whole world looking at me like a hero well I'm not okay I'm just fucking not I'm just a Dumbass boy with a dream of having a father. He says yelling at me venom in his voice I could feel grief building up in my stomach. God do you know how hard it is to live in a world where you don't have your parents and now the only person who made you happy is gone you don't you never did. I say my voice low but pound enough for him my eyes change as I stare into his brown ones I could feel his hot breathe on my neck his lips are not far from mine. Yet someone or something fucked up our mojo and now I'm stuck with you. I say low before I could say another word he lips met mine i closed my eyes he kept kissing me it was passionate and slow I wanted to kiss him back but something told me not to I felt him stop I open my eyes and looked at him he looks at me shocked he suddenly disappeared I press the button and let tears fall I want this to be over

Iridescent