Him

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We still talked but as friends. To me its weird when your ex asks to be friends liks foreal but oh well. It was actually fun though it was weird. We still had stupid conversations and he still bugged the crap out of me. I still loved him though I don't know why?!! He sounded fine after he dumped me which I was glad he was fine. But sad cause I felt like I was the reason why he was so stressed out. I was also stressed out and like I said before he knew exactly what to say and when to say it. He would help me which honestly I didn't want help I've done it by myself. I really did need help more than I thought I did. The thing was that I was asking for help and advice for other people when really I needed to ask about myself . I was do stressed out tryin to help that im surprised I didn't explode . I loved to help people cause I felt needed important I loved listening so I could help them. Ive been told I am a good listener but to listen carefully cause  I cant agree to help when I cant really do anything . There is so much I can do at my age even if I want to do more to help. Listen before you speak is what im working on now.