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Depression

Prompt : Simon is depressed, they help eachother
Ship : Minizerk
MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING:DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED BY BULLYING,HOMOPHOBIC COMMENTS,SUICIDE, DEPRESSION OR ANY OTHER MENTAL ISSUES

Third Person POV
Simon is 15 and has been depressed for about half his life.His dad left him at the age of 6 then his mother committed suicide at the age of 10.His parents made quite a lot of money and he still received money from his father so he decided to stay in his house with his older sister Lacey.Unfortunaly Lacey was killed a year later.He did not see anyone else in his family so he lived by himself.He started High School and immediately got bullied for not having any friends or family.Simons depression really kicked in at the age of 13 when he would cut repetitively all the time

Simon had never had a friend.
He always felt as he wasn't good enough because of this.
There was many things 'wrong with Simon'
He was gay,depressed,had anxiety, panic attacks, had anorexia and much more.

Josh is gay but does not show it at school. He is the popular kid, if everyone finds out he would get bullied.Joshs parents were divorced and he had no siblings so he found it hard to cope with his home life.

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S I M O N ' S  P O V :
My alarm went off.I dreaded my alarm because I knew what it meant.I had to go into school, get kicked about, get shouted out and then come home and cut.That was my normal routine anyway.

I slowly made my way out of bed even though I wished that I could stay here forever but I promised my mum that I would try my best and I don't break promises.
As soon as I was fully out of bed, I went into my low budget bathroom that hadn't been fixed up in multiple years, and showered.When I was finished I looked in the mirror in disgust.
ugly
worthless
fat

I grabbed the silver shiny blade in front of me and dragged it across my arms and legs.
After I was finished, I bandaged my cuts and made my way to my wardrobe.I don't have many clothes as I don't have much money but I did have a few things.Eventually I decided on wearing a plain black t-shirt,a flannel, ripped black jeans and scruffy  black trainers.
I was really not looking forward to school today.
My skinny hands picked up my old backpack and headed out the door.I didn't have breakfast as usual because I wasn't hungry.I probably should eat because I haven't in the past 2 days but I wasn't bothered.
I wanted to die, I might as well speed up the process.
It took me about 10 minutes to walk to school and I braced myself for hell.

As the gates surpassed me, I immediacy saw my bullies.
Their names were Olajide(JJ), Harry, Ethan , Cal(Lux) and Cal(Freezy).
They were also friends with people like Tobi, Josh and Vikk but they were nice and never bullied anyone.

JJ came up to me and shouted many homophobic slurs but I've learnt to just block then out and walk on.I tried to walk away but JJ pinned me to the lockers by my neck.All of his other friends came up behind him and I could barely breathe.Ethan began talking about how I was a failure and that I was worthless which I fully agree with but then Harry made a comment that hurt me the most...
He told me my parents hated me and that's why my dad left and my mum killed herself...
That hurt the most...
I didn't know why my mum killed herself..
Maybe they were right.
Maybe she hated me that much.
JJ and his friends continued to kick and punch me till they were satisfied and I nearly passed out.

A few minutes later I felt someone come to my presence.
"Simon?" I heard a familiar voice say.
I soon realized that it was Josh.

I could speak, or in fact breathe.I was shaking and tears fell down my face faster than anything.
He realized that I couldn't do anything so he carried me outside where no one could see us and so I could get fresh air.
I clung on to him like I used to do to my mum and sister when I was upset.To my surprise he didn't mind me crying, he just soothed me until I was finally able to make out words.
"What happened?" Josh asked me in his kind voice.
"J..J bea..t me u..p..p with hi..s f..r.ie..nds" I managed to hiccup out a few words as tears were still steaming down my face from the pain and just me being sad.
"Are you injured?" He asked ever so sweetly.
I shook my head yes and I could feel my chest and my head and stomach were bleeding.
"I'm going to take you to the hospital, this looks really bad, everything will be okay " he reassured me.
I tried to smile at him to show that I was appreciating his help but I couldn't quite do it because my face was hurting.
Josh once again picked me up but this time carrying me to his car.He put my down in the backseat and made sure I was comfortable and that he wasn't hurting me.

The car drive was pretty silent but it wasn't an awkward silence, it was a peaceful one.I was hurting and my body felt rough and I nearly passed out but we had finally got there.

Josh took me into A&E and I was drowsy so I couldn't really tell what was happening but I felt then doing tests on me.

Once they had finished, Josh said "Would you like me to take you home?" And I shook my head refusley (AN:Is that a word?) as I didn't want him to see my home life and my house was an absolute state.
He offered to take me to his house and I couldn't refuse such an offer.
I was back on my feet and able to walk again so i slowly but surely made my way to Josh's car. To my luck he didn't ask much about what happened and he took me back to his house. I still had tear-stained cheeks and red eyes. Once we arrived, I met his mother. She was lovely and happily let me stay over.
We went straight to his room and he gave me some clothes to change into and let me shower. It felt so nice to finally have hot water.
Once I got out I got changed into the clothes he gave me. He gave me a black hoodie and some black shorts. Luckily I don't have any cuts on my lower legs so he wouldn't be able to tell.
I walked back into his room and that's when he started asking questions, the time I dreaded.
"Sorry if I'm being personal, but why did they beat you up? You seem lovely and I don't know why they'd do that to someone like you," Josh spoke to me.
My mood dropped, I was worried that he wouldn't believe me because he was friends with that group of people. After about a minute I finally spoke up, "It's because they bully me,they bully me because I'm gay and because I'm a depressed, worthless fuck." I spoke in a shaky quiet tone but loud enough for him to hear.
"No No No you're not worthless at all, we've barely met but I can already tell your an amazing person," Josh spoke in a concerned sort of tone.

"Thank you, it means a lot" Simon slightly smiled, he loved to hear things like that, especially because he didn't get told them often.

A/N: i know this ended at a really odd point. i wrote this chapter a couple of months ago and forgot about it.

if you relate to this chapter. i want to let you know that you are loved, even though it might not feel like it, there's someone out there who loves and cares for you
stay safe <3