Can I stop?

You were suppose to be there forever,

Be the best friend that was always there.

I can’t stand to think of you that way now,

It makes my throat burn and my eyes water.

I didn’t understand the things you did when we were little,

But I found a way to forgive you, because we were sisters.

I still don’t understand why you do the things you do,

But this time I’m not sure if I can forgive so easily.

Its hard to see you the same way I did before,

Especially after what I know now.

Especially after all that you’ve done,

And you did it simply for the laughs.

I don’t understand it,

And it makes me want to cry.

I’ve had to stay strong for so long,

Had to hold my chin up and pretend it was okay.

I don’t know how much longer I can hold my chin up,

I think my neck hurts now.

I’m not sure if I can fight anymore tears,

Or bite my tongue any longer.

I have to say so much,

And you have to hear it from me.

But I don’t know if it will change a thing,

And honestly I don’t know if I can say it.

But there is one thing I can say,

One thing that’s been waiting.

Waiting since I was young,

And needed a break.

Waiting since it began,

Since it started to hurt.

Waiting since you broke my heart;

Can I stop being strong now?

Can I take a break?

Just for a second, to let it all out.

Sob and sob till the tears are gone,

Then I promise, I’ll be back.

I’ll be strong again,

And I’ll offer support.

I’ll stay quiet,

And watch you continue to self destruct.

But for now, I need a break.

Please,

Can I stop?