I can no longer tell apart happiness from sadness,
it's just a blurred mess for me.
I don't know what to do when I have lost and I don't know what to do when I have won.
Do I laugh?
Do I cry?
It's so confusing!
Will I eventually lose my thoughts to this hole in my heart or will I go completely insane?
I wrote this one awhile ago to... the last few have been concentrated on the fact that my emotions are kinda fucked and confusing... I'm not going to explain more, but I want you all to know that I am (kinda) getting better💕
