this is us

yes

i was finally going to try to move on

and i felt like the first step was to give away his clothes

so that's what i did

i bundled up all of his clothes that were left in the motel room

and threw them in a kmart bag

some tears were shed but

it wasn't as bad as his funeral

i drove to a shell gas station

because i remember there was a bin where you could

throw clothes in it and the less fortunate will get it

just before i got out of the car

i pulled out one of his plaid shirts and hugged it to my chest

it was my favorite shirt he wore

i hugged it so tightly i wished it would disappear into my chest

but it didn't

instead i felt a lump in the left pocket

i took it out and my fingers made contact with a velvet box

and i stopped

because every girl and lady in the world knows what a velvet box means

i slowly brought the box to my heart and started to sob

and i whispered the word yes

over and over until my throat was dry