Who am I?

I Wish

I wish I could tell you how much I hate this,

I wanted this to be better,

I wanted to finally be calm,

Rather then calming.

I am Storm-Peace,

That's my middle name,

But I didn't think it cursed me.

I didn't think I would be peaceful,

While a storm is raging through me.

I wish I could stand up to you, I wish you'd let me talk.

I wanted this to start over,

I wanted to finally grow up.

Listen to me, I want to let go.

I hate you,

No I don't.

I care about you,

I want to be cared about.

I want to die,

No I can't,

I want you to love me,

As I love you.

I want to leave,

But things need to be fixed.

I want to change this,

So that we can be changed.

Why are you so difficult?

No it's me,

I want to understand you,

So understand me.

I wish I could let go,

I wanted to forget the pain,

I wanted to finally find the ends,

Be better then I can't be.

Stop lying to me,

Stop telling me you're fine,

You're just like me,

You hide the loss of your sister's,

Like I hide the loss of myself.

Why didn't I have a funeral?

I died too, yes because of myself.

But do I deserve to be alone?

Do I deserve to be forgotten?

I want to be who I was before,

But she died, I killed her.

I can't be who I was,

Whoever she was, I miss her.

I miss her like I miss my second grade friends.

They didn't deserve my disappearance.

They didn't deserve to be abandoned.

I did that to them.

They didn't have any friends,

Until I was there,

And I left them to suffer.

I don't want you to be like them,

Left alone by me,

I drag pain with me where ever I go.

You don't deserve that.