I love him. God, I love him. His hair, his smile, his jaw and everything inbetween. He's just too perfect for this world. I just want to capture him in the cocoon that is my arms and hold him forever. Protecting him. Caring for him. And loving him. I need to tell him how I feel. he probably won't understand though.
"Melody?" He will never understand, I think.
"Melody!" Ms. Tom says.
"Oh sorry," I apologize.
"Get to class. You can't just stand here in the middle of the hall," she scolds. I walk to class and get a tardy.
I plop into my seat and zone out while Mr.Harton talks about literature. I can't stop thinking about how I'm going tell him. I try going through the possible ways in my head. Maybe I should just kiss him. No words, just tongue. No. Too intimate and he probably wouldn't kiss back. What about "Hi. I've loved you for a long time, and before you say anything I wouldn't be able to live without. I love you Lucas Martin Days. I love you. I don't care if you don't feel the same way but I love you." I suppose that would work.
I don't want to imagine what he might say but I can't help it. I think of the worse possible outcomes like, "I don't feel the same way. Sure I love you, but not in that way. I already told you, I like Karly. You're just too ugly for me." I start to freak out now. He probably doesn't like me. God, I'm so stupid thinking I can just walk up to him and say "Hi, I love you." I can't just do that without warning. I could drop subtle hints though. No. Still too straightforward. Maybe I can tell someone and word will reach him eventually. No. Absolutely not. I can't and won't trust anyone. Damn, this is so fucking frustrating. I think my best bet is to just be straightforward.
