Distance / / z.m.

Sixteenth Phone Call.

"You okay?"

"Some of the guys' girlfriends flew out to visit them. Louis flew out El and Liam flew Dani out here. Even Harry flew out this woman he's been seeing for awhile."

"And why is that a problem?"

"I was going to ask you to come over to the states for a weekend."

"Zayn- I've got school and-"

"Yeah, I know. That's why I didn't ask."

"So, it's a big deal because you... missed me?"

"I guess. Watching them all together like that, it got me thinking. I don't even know who the hell I am anymore."

"You realized that while creeping on your friends and their dates..?"

"I'm not kidding. Just- they're all so stable. I want to be like that."

"You're Zayn Malik. It can't be that hard to find a girlfriend."

"You don't get it."

"I'm confused, Zayn.."

"Watching the guys tonight, happy, and the way they looked at their girls- I've slept with four different women this week and I couldn't even tell you what their names were."

"Zayn-"

"I call you after every single girl because I just feel so guilty. Like, you're the only one who can make the feeling go away."

"I'm always going to be here-"

"Yeah, I know that. But it always comes back to how you aren't actually here. I wouldn't have done half the shit I've done if you were actually here."

"I'm sure it's not that bad."

"Not that bad? Lennon, I met this girl in Boston a few weeks ago. I bought her a flight to LA and paid for her hotel room the other night just because she was a good fuck and I wanted a go at her again."

"I didn't know.."

"I don't like who I am anymore, Lenny."

"Then change it. If you don't like who you are, then change it."

"How, though? How can I do that?"

"I don't know."