Desires

Chapter One

"But Dad! Do I really have to go all the way to San Fransico to go to college? Why can't I just go to the college here in Barcelona?" I knew it was pointless to argue with him, he made his decision and he is just as stubborn as I am.

"Alice, you know I would love for you to be able to live here in Barcelona and visit me and for me to be big part in your life, but they offered you a scholarship there and you need to spend your college years learning who you are and growing up!"

Ouch. I'm pretty grown up aren't I? I graduated last year and am still living with my father in his tiny apartment. Maybe not.

"I know dad, thank you for caring about me, and I know your doing this for my own good, but god I'm going to miss you..." An unwelcomed tear trickled down my face and my father frowns noticing my pain. "I'll miss you too sweety, but you can come visit me anytime you want and I will always be here for you to talk to. I love you, Alice."Great, now he's crying. "I love you too dad" I force a smile.

I wake up to a forgotten but still annoying alarm. I have butterflies in my stomach and feel light headed. Am I excited to go to college? No, this is probably just my nerves. I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom. I move zombie like while grabbing my toothbrush and applying toothpaste. As I brush my teeth I try and multi-task by combing back my wild morning hair. I finish brushing my teeth, then I apply a thin line of eyeliner, a little mascara and some Chapstick. I look at myself in the mirror and praise myself for how I look.

In ninth grade I had braces, I weighed 176 pounds and was awkward and clumsy looking. I lost the weight, took care of myself, started wearing clothes that fit me and started wearing a minimal amount of makeup. I'm 5"6 with curves, dirty blonde hair with a nice tan due to the fact I live in Barcelona. But something's different today. I look.. Confident?