I was brought into a room and asked to wash my hands throughly and given scrubs to put on. She puts a hospital bracelet on my wrist then scans it. "This is how you will be able to get in here". She says to me. And I nod. She pushes a button on the wall and we hear a buzzing sound and we walk through the door. She leads me over to an incubator with a small baby inside. The name tag on the inside says "Baby boy Swan-Mills". I have a small smile on my face. I ask the nurse, "This is my son?" "Yes it is. Would you like to hold him?" "I don't know. Can I ? I don't want to hurt him". "No. Everything is fine. He's not hooked up to any wires and you won't hurt him. Why don't you sit down right here and I'll get him". She points to a seat right next to me and I sit. She opens the top of the incubator and reaches in and picks him up and walks over to me and gently placed him in my arms. I stare at his face and he looks perfect. He's got dark hair just like Gina, and a cute little button nose. I lift my hand to run my fingers over his head, but I stop to ask first "Can I touch him?" "Of course". So I do and it's so soft. Then I kiss his forehead. "Welcome to the world little man. We've been waiting for you. You really had your mommy and me scared for a while kid". Just then he starts to stretch and makes cute little grunting sounds. I quietly start to cry. The nurse asks "Are you ok Ms Swan?" "Yes. Thank you. It's just been an emotional night. I almost lost him and his mother, but here I am holding my son in my arms". Just as I finished speaking a doctor walked over. "Hello Ms Swan I am Dr. Abby Lockhart. I'm the head of the NICU. I wanted to give you an update on how your son is". "Hello. Nice to meet you". I say. "We just got all the results back on the tests that were run on your son and I'm happy to say everything came out perfect. Your son is just fine. We still would like to keep him here for a few days just to monitor him". I nod as I cry again. "Thank you so much. Thank you, thanks to all of you". "Your welcome. I'll let have some time with you son. I'll check in it a little while". I nod and the doctor walks away. The nurse also gave us some privacy. I held him so close and kissed his head. When he started to get fussy I got nervous. The nurse came over "it's ok Ms Swan. He's probably just hungry". I breathe a sigh of relief. "Would you like to try feeding him?" "I don't know, I don't want to do it wrong and make him sick or something". "It's ok, I'll be here to help you the whole time". "Ok. I'll try". She instructs me on how to hold him, then she gives me a small bottle and I begin to feed him. He takes it easily. After he's eaten about half the bottle she tells me it's time to burp him. She shows me how and he let a good one out. I laugh and say "that's my boy". I give him the rest of the bottle then burp him again. The nurse takes him from me so she can change him. "Do you think it'll be ok if I leave for a little bit? I'd like to check on my fiancé" "Of course. You can come back when ever you like". "Thank you". I give him a gentle kiss on his head an go back downstairs to see Regina.
