Dedicated to scor1672
You drove past the old abandoned and you began to think back to when you and Jack hung out there, absolutely wasted. In fact, that spot was where you two shared your last kiss, the day before he told you. You still remembered the taste of his lips. But that was eleven months ago. Before he left.
-Flashback-
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"Y/N, we need to talk." Those words coming out of your boyfriends mouth scared you.
"What is it Jack?" Your voice was shaky.
"Y/N,Jack and I've been invited to be a part of Magcon." He slowly said.
"What's that?" You asked, looking at the ground.
"It's this tour with a bunch of viners and we get to travel and meet fans and-" You let out a quiet sob, causing Jack to stop talking. Tears traveled down your face. You knew what he was gonna say next.
"Y/N, I'm leaving." He said. Your make up ran down your face. It had always been Jack's dream to do something like this, but in doing so, he'd be leaving behind your dreams. The dreams of you and him going to homecoming or skipping classes to go out for Taco Bell. Sure they weren't big dreams, but they meant a lot to you. You needed that, but apparently he didn't.
"I wish I could take you." He whispered cautiously.
"Yeah, well." You cried a little. You stood up and walked towards the door.
"Y/N, where are you going?" He asked.
"I'm leaving before you can forget me." And with that you left.
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"Hey, Y/N. How've you been?" Sam Wilkinson asked. He went on tour with Jack and Jack for a bit, but came home.
"I'm fine." You faked a smile. You weren't fine at all.
"That's good. Good." He smiled.
"How was the tour?" You asked.
"Unreal." He laughed slightly.
"And how's... Um, how are Jack and Jack?" You looked away.
"They're great." Sam awkwardly shuffled.
"That's good."
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"Y/N, can I see those pictures from the party?" You friend asked.
"Sure!" You smiled and handed her your phone. She began looking through the outrageous photos and laughing, then she went silent.
"What?" You laughed. She slowly handed you your phone, which showed a Snapchat of Jack that you had screenshotted.
"Y/N..." She said.
"What? Okay I'll admit I sometimes like to look at the pictures he sent me. I feel alone! You snapped. Silence.
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"Come out with us." You friend whined.
"I can't." You said.
"Why aren't you ever around anymore?" She asked.
"I just don't feel like it. Is that okay with you?" You hung up.
You resumed looking through Jack's photos. It hurt seeing that he had moved on and that he was happy. It was hard hearing his name in conversations with your friends. You hadn't seen him in a long time. But looking at how happy he was with the new girl made it feel like your relationship hadn't happened. If it was real, how was he fine? You certainly weren't.
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It had been eleven months, but you still felt like it was all a sick nightmare. You wanted to be in Jacks arms again. You wanted him to hold you tight and never let you go, but it wasn't going to happen. So the next best thing was to wish to forget him. You wished you could wake up and not breathe him. To know what it's like not to need him. To forget him. To wake up with amnesia.
"Jack and Jack are back in town." The text from your mum snapped you out of your thoughts.
