Im here now

~Im Okay~

This is a Sabriel fanfic, for when Gabriel died, and sam jumped into the cage, im sorry for OOC but im really not a super pro at writing the fics... anyways...disclaimer, supernatural is not mine im just a small fish in the ocean that is Kripke's supernatural. peace out.

the title is based of a fan song by Elizabeth Smart, Im okay Sam winchester. give it a listen!! i love her~~

lots of sad sammy feels......because face it, everyone enjoys hurt sam at one point and if you dont...well this isnt a fic for you.....caus ehurt sam is awesome...and this is an excuse for me to indulge in lovable hurt sam, sabriel, destiel and even hurt dean!

oh and huge swearing warning!!! and um....well yeah also really kinda a lot of injuries hopefully...so yeah! enjoy!

~~~~~~~~~Gabriel~~~~~~~~~~

It started with the dreams i got. Sam...first it was just him. His face. And then it got worse....all the pain he went through. I felt the pain, the physical, and emotional hurt he felt. And i couldnt do anything. I wanted to so badly. But i couldnt.

"CASTIEL!" came my yell. I stood in the gravel road near the Motel im at and i wait for my brother to arrive. "CAS YOU BABY TRENCHCOATED ANGEL!" i yell again

"Gabriel" came a soft almost sympathetic voice from behind me. I whirled around and im about to ask when Castiel interupts with "Samuel is fine. You are whom he worries for dear brother." Cas says to me and i almost laughed "They dont know im alive little bro, Sammich is fine? As if" i scoffed

Cas merely gave me a strangely emotionful glance and said "He may not know you live, but he knows that there is reason to worry for you...." he tells me and i start to think.... "Cassie bro, did you tell them?" and when my brother doesnt answer immediately i say "Castiel! Do. They. Know!"

Castiel responded to me with "No...i didnt tell them...entirely" he suddenly adds and my relaxed shoulders tense up "What" i say kinda confused "I did not tell Sam you live now...but i told Dean" he explained and i sighed "Of course...of course you told dean, do you not realize though ,Cas, that dean would tell sam!" i argue

"He will not tell sam" insisted Cassie and i raise my eyebrows "Why is that bro" i asked curiously and he responds with "Because i have made sure he will not tell" castiel says and i sighed in relief "Thanks Cas" i say popping a sucker into my mouth, the fruity sweet flavor erupting in my mouth.

"Anything else brother?" asked Cas. "Um actually yeah...whats up with sam? he's got migraines, and is real stressed..whats up?" he asked "He released Lucifer from hell....as you are aware...but....apparently our father's clean up didnt go well.....and.....when he came across Famine....his demon blood cravings re emerged...and Dean and i were to late to stop him from getting to two demons, i am sorry Gabriel"

I stared at Cas in awe "Are you saying..famine got to you brother?" he said shocked and when Cas looked uncomfortable i chuckled a bit "Wow....so what? Sam still on demon blood or something?" i asked concerned but mostly sounding curious. Castiel raised an eyebrow but said "No..he is getting 'clean' as dean puts it."

I nod in understanding "Cause for the migraines and fever...but...what about the stress? it isnt about the job or getting clean i can tell." i say and what cas tells me shocks me....but also makes sense... "He is Lucifer's vessel..and he is afraid of saying yes" Castiel said then looke dup as if he heard something.

"i must be on my way brother, Dean is praying for me" he tells me and i nod and say "I understand Cassie...take care of those Winchesters yeah" i say and he nods then vanishes with the sound sof wings flapping and i watch as he leaves. I sighed and turned heading back inside