Camera Boy (13 reasons why)

[1] Tape 7 Side B

This is reason 14. When I was just new to liberty High a "girl" named Amber helped through a lot of stress from it. We became good friends, or so I thought. She seemed nice, loyal and caring. But I was wrong.

It all happened when you told me I was wrong about Tyler being a pervert, you said that the two girls were me and Cortney indefence defence of him. I confronted you about it and you told me that I am no better than any other girl in libetry high, you said that just because I'm pretty doesnt mean I am better or can get away with whatever I want. You made me feel worthless and useless. You told me that it wasn't a big deal that he stalked me because he did it to you too. You told me I wasn't special. You told me that I was mean to Tyler for no reason because I didn't go out with him. Because he wasn't my type. You said that life was much better without me

So amber-Or should I say Jacob? Cause that's what you told me you prefered to be called when you came out to me as a trans gay boy. You are the last reason why I killed myself. Are you happy? Happy that you don't have to deal with me anymore?

Jacob's Pov

I cried. I silently cried next to Tyler as he sleeped peacefully, snoring quietly next to me. I was listening to my tape for the second time through my headphones while crying. How could she out me like that? I know what I did was wrong but I was just being honest, she didn't even tell the whole story. She didn't say what means things she said to me first that made me say what I said. She didn't say that she was a bully at her old school either. Nor did she say that I was one of the girls that her and her "friends" bullied.

I felt Tyler shifting a little and I looked over at him. "Jay what's wrong? Why are you crying?" He was so sweet to me, I didn't care what he did or if he was still doing it. He was my friend when I stood up for him and he was my best friend while I was crying in his bed. I looked at his windows to see the broken parts and cracked parts.

"Its Hannah. I keep listening to my tape and I can't believe she lied like that" I told him looking over at his bed hair, I laughed at it.

He took my head phones off my head and tossed everything to the side. "Don't think about it too much. I don't want you to go back to that dark place again" Tyler reminded me that he didn't want me to try to overdose on sleeping pills again. He always told me he was happy and glad that I made it through the comma that the pills put me in.

" Thank you but don't toss my headphones again! I don't want to break them!" I whisper yelled at him. He chuckled a little the pulled me down with him so we could sleep.

"How are you doing? Your not having the thoughts again are you?" He asked me seriously. He was talking about the suicidal thoughts i had a while before Hannah killed herself.

"It's gotten better but I still get them sometimes. " He nodded.

"Okay, well it's better than the last time I asked. Go to sleep and if I wake up again and see you with that fucking tape in your hand I will break your headphones. " And with that he pulled me down and snuggled up to me.

"Fine"

After a while of thinking about Hannah I fell asleep.