my dreams

the escape

I became best friends with my favorite youtuber jacksepticeye, and I have been saving my money up for 2 years, not buying anything. My escape is so close I can taste it. The savory unknown. Just ahead, with my favorite people. My 2 best friends and the youtuber, on our way to Ireland in an unexpected journey. I lost my wallet 2 years ago, and I dont even have a passport. No social security because that was in my wallet, and no identification. I hope they dont check. But it's a dream, of course they wont. I call my mom and tell her I'm on my way to Ireland, all she said was "without me?" If she had money for herself, I would be glad to take her with me. But all of my savings are going into this 2 week trip to a new lifestyle, I hope it's worth it.

The airplane shake, and I almost have a heart attack. My first trip anywhere pretty much on my own, and I may die before we even land to get on that plain that goes to our destination. My heart starts beating 100 miles an hour, I'm having an anxiety attack, but my face does not show it. I dont need to worrie anyone or draw attention. That is the last thing I want. I feel like I'm about to pass out. But I focus my mind on the thoughts 'you are going to be fine', and somehow that works, I look to my friends, Aubrey is still talking to her mom. Charlie and jack are already asleep. Aubrey has a pained look on her face, " we have to go home" she says to me, our plain hasn't even landed and she already is going to leave. Sadness and disappointment fills my soul to the brim. The escape just in reach, with the need to look back is distant. Charlie is going with her, I know it. But I'm not turning back. The airplane lands, and everyone steps out, me and Sean for the Ireland flight. My 2 best friends for the one back home. " let's go dakota" they say to me assuming I am going with them. "I'm leaving" I say to them, sadness grows on there face. " I am too close to turn back now" I say. I feel a small bit of sadness over come me, I am going to be alone for this trip. I give them hugs and aboard my flight with jack.
Then I wake up, in my room. No escape.