Seungjun was left alone with a male who was supposedly younger than him on a roof. Great. Jihun sat next to seungjun, crossing his legs. "Killing yourself isn't the answer to everything." He spoke quietly. His voice was calm. It was so calm it was kind of worrying.
"No one wants me here. I don't get why you're talking to me." Seungjun hissed, he didn't want anyone's help. He didn't want to look weak, especially in front of a hot guy who was younger than him. Seungjun wanted to be the responsible, more mature person.
"You're being selfish, Seungjun. Stop trying to give yourself a reason to die. Have you ever tried a new beginning? Have you tried to think about the people who care about you? I hope you realise you're not the only person suffering. We live in Korea. It's not fully accepted yet, and it's bloody stupid, but you shouldn't let people bring you down for who you are." Jihun rambled, playing with his hands as he spoke.
Seungjun sighed, shaking his head. He was too focused on death, he didn't think of anything better. "We all die one day."
"Yeah we all die, but we have a life, and we should be thankful for it. There are people out there who can't have a life, or don't have a life anymore. They trapped in a dark hole. They can't go anywhere, get a job, have a family. We're lucky for what we have, we shouldn't end our lives because some pity people think so. We're all suffering in our own way. Anyways, if everyone was the same, imagine how boring life would be?" Jihun continued, he couldn't help but frown a little. Seungjun was completely hopeless. "What if I told you now, Inseong has depression? Shocking, right? He has is own way of handling it around other or just in general. It doesn't stop you from smiling. You can still have fun. Everyone's allowed emotions, just sometimes, it can get out of hand."
Seungjun didn't know what to say, sat there picking at his melon roll. It's true, death isn't always the answer, but it was something on his mind all the time. Dropping something, getting something wrong, or not being able to do something. He can't help but think about what the situation would be like if he wasn't there, if anything would be any better. "Fuck. I'm dumb, I'm sorry." He cursed under his breath, chewing on his bottom lip as a way to prevent himself from crying.
"You don't need to apologise for being you. Everything going to be okay, but that's all up to you. You need to be the one making a difference, and I want to help you." Jihun stated, patting seungjun's back softly before getting up. "Cheer up chap. Now, I think you should go talk to Inseong." He added before leaving.
Seungjun was alone again, a few tears rolling down his cheeks. He didn't realise people cared. But now, now's the time he needs to make a difference.
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YO an update!? also i hate myself for this book because it's hella cringe and cliche, but you guys seem to be okay with it, so it's cool i guess lmao. Have a good day !!
