Always Best Friends Forever Brothers

Rest in Peace Scott

Four days later was Scott's funeral and everyone was sad, almost the entire School was there and the sheriff's department it was a sad day.

Stiles POV

We are all standing at Scott's grave, i have never seen such a big funeral and everyone was crying non stop.
I stand frozen in place as his coffin is lowered and all i want to do, is jump in open his coffin and yell at him to wake up.

I know he wouldn't, his lifeless body is being lowered into the ground and i didn't even get to see him one last time before he died.
I was to selfish to care and now his gone forever and it hurts so bad.

Everyone else has already left it was just me, i'm suppose to find a way to say goodbye, but how do i do it, how do i let my best friend, my brother go, how do i say goodbye. I just can't. 

"Stiles it's time to go, come on son let him rest" my dad says putting a hand on my shoulder.

"How do i do that dad, how do i let him rest. I didn't get to say goodbye, i didn't get to see him again because i was selfish and didn't want to come back. If i only came back, i could have said goodbye, but no i had to stay away, how selfish can someone be. I let him down dad, i let everyone down and Scott had to pay the price. It's not fair, it's not" i say falling to the ground and crying my eyes out.

"Why, why him, why couldn't it have been me. He has a lot more to live for, i don't so why, why did he have to die he didn't deserve it, he really didn't. Forgive me Scott i was to selfish to even visit my own brother, i'm sorry please forgive me. I know it won't bring you back and i will have to live with the guilt forever... but please know that i never meant to neglect you. I really am sorry" i say throwing a hand full of dirt into the grave. 

"Let's go home son you look exhausted,"

"Okay dad" i say getting up and walking away, crying silently.

How could i have let this happen, he trusted me, i promised him i will come back but i broke my promise. Now i will have to live with the consequences and without my best friend by my side.
It would never be the same without him again, how do i go on, how do i forget.

As i lay on my bed, i dial his number, just to hear his voice.

"Hi this is Scott i'm not available right now so please make an appointment after the beep". Beep...

That was it all i had left, the only way i would ever hear his voice. I was an idiot for not coming home to see him like i promised, i even brought him a souvenir like he asked but he will never get to see it.

It's been two days since the funeral and i still didn't leave my room.
I know i have to go and say goodbye to him eventually but it just hurts so much to know we will never play video games in my room again, go into the woods looking for a dead body or even save the town from all the bad things.
It will never happen again because his gone and i'm all alone now, i'm not even part of the pack anymore, so that's all i am, alone. 

I guess i have to go and say goodbye, before it gets to hard, i take his souvenir and get into the jeep.
I drive all the way to the cemetery, walk to his grave and just stand there starring until i drop to my knees and cry. 

"Hey Scott long time no see, i'm sorry i broke my promise and didn't come. I brought your souvenir just like you asked me to. There's a few of them... first i brought you a chip from one of the casinos in Las Vegas, a shirt with a werewolf head on it, it's from Chicago and from one of our hunts i brought you an angel blade. It's really cool, i just wish you were here to see it, if i came home sooner you would have and i know you would have liked it".

"I don't know how to say goodbye to you, your my best friend, my brother and i let you down. For that i'm sorry, i miss you so much Scott i don't know what to do anymore. I mean i'm not part of the pack anymore and i just don't have the will power to do any of the things we did together. How do i go on without my brother? I still remember your last words, we'll always be best friends no matter what and we'll be brothers forever".

"I'll see you soon Scott, i love you brother, Goodbye and rest in peace, be happy and don't forget me. I'm never leaving Beacon Hills again i promise".

Always Best Friends, Forever Brothers.