Life✨

Life✨#06

I don't know why, but Sam hasn't been answering any of my texts for the last five days. I haven't seen him around school, or on the bus either. I'm starting to get worried.............Tom is also mad at Sarah, and I honestly don't know what is happening...... The bullying has stopped aswell, I'm not getting hurtful or mean texts but instead nice ones like "hey Cat x, can we catch up sometime and can we be friends?" I'm honestly so confused right now, it's like my head is spinning in this big bundle of things, and not only I have that in my mind, but about three weeks ago I started to play basketball, I just wanted to give it a try and see how it was, and apparently now I'm a star at it. Anyway my rep team for basketball has gotten into finals, we are all really excited and pumped for what's to come, tonight is our first finals game, I'm taking one of my bestest friends that goes to Summer Heights High with me who is in my team, her name is Charlotte.Lack, we have known each other since about year three through sport and my mum and her mum are really good friends and go out for coffees all the time. We are playing all the way in Sandriham tonight and it's about an hour , but with traffic it's an hour and a half away, so Charlotte and I are gonna watch a movie in the way there. Were really pumped for it as well because we are playing the team that we have beaten two times, and who ever loses tonight is out, so we are hoping to beat them again.

✖️FINGERS ARE CROSSED✖️

I rang Sam this morning but he didn't really pick up because it was 8:35am, and he was Probably in class then. Tom hasn't really been talking to Sarah that much lately, don't know why but I hope everything is okay, and it's not something too bad........

Music is still really important to me, whenever I'm feeling confused I just listen to my music and listen to nearly every single word the artist is saying, it helps me get off my mind a little....

I send a text to Sam saying.....

"I'm gonna love ya, until you hate me, I now I'm gonna show ya,what's really crazy, you should known better, then to mess with me harder...........I'm gonna love ya, I'm gonna love ya, I'm gonna love ya, like a black widow baby...-by Iggy Azalea.....

"Song^^^, that's what I feel Sam to be honest......." Listen to it...

...............................10 minutes later......................................

A text from Sam comes up on my phone....

"Cat, yes I do love you too.......But I feel like a fag now from what I have done the other night, that's why I haven't been at school and texted you or anything......... I'm gonna meet you out the front of your house in five minutes if that's ok to tell you in person?" Said Sam

"Yeh okay sure Sam.......I just want to find out the truth that's all" I texted back

I went to my bedroom got changed, put my hair up in a bun and put some make-up on, then headed out the front to wait for Sam. When I got out the front Sam was there waiting...

"Hey Sam" I said

"Hey Cat"Sam said

"Ummm can I tell you now, and cuddle you while saying it?" Sam added in

"Yeh sure, let's sit under the tree right there"I pointed on the right to me

"So it was like 12pm at night and I was at a party, the girl who invited me was called Claudia. We have been friends since primary school, and I was about to leave and my friends gave me some alcohol, and I only thought it was a bit and then they made me drink the half of the bottle. I felt like I was drunk and I Probably was drunk. Claudia then sorta took advantage of it and took me outside, she made me sit down, then she sat on my lap............And then we...........Kissed for about five minutes, I knew it was a shit move, and I'm so so so sorry, can we please make up and get out of this, sorry Cat, you know I didn't mean too and you know I wouldn't of done that if I wasn't drunk"Sam said with a sad face and was cuddling me down to floor legit

"Okay Sam, so you kissed Claudia for five minutes. Fine okay whatever, I'm just pissed off that you didn't answer any of my texts or phone calls, I thought you hated me or something was going on, you don't know how worried I was and how many things are going on in my mind right now...........

You just don't know Sam...............I don't think you actually really understand... I've been through a lot lately, and my head is just all jumbled up."

"ITS LIKE MY LIFE✨ IS A MESS, AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" I ran back inside my house and started to cry heavily under the covers of my bed. Luckily my mum or anyone wasn't home at this time, otherwise my only option to do would be to run away from home.......

............far away from home............

.............so far away that no one would ever find me.................

.............so far away, that they wouldn't see me for the rest of there Life✨..................

................To be continued shortly........................