Alex never knew i self harmed
She wonder tho why i always would wear hoodies and jackets all year round but never pushed me to find out
I've been self harming for 2 years now
And noone had bothered to ask me why...
Alex came over to my house
And walked right in without knocking because, well. we've known each other fir a long time we don't even bother to knock..
'Scarlett'
'Hey'
She follows me upstairs into my room
And sits on my bed, stares at phone thinking about something that seems really important and when i close my door and sit beside her. i get a lil curious.
"So what you doin?" I ask
Ok, so truth or dare she says not bothering to answer my question.
"Dare"
Ummm i dare you to, sing love the way you lie but only the rap parts! she says.
Ok, easy.....
I cant tell you what it really is..
I can only tell you what it feels like!
An right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe i cant breathe but i still fight while i can fight as long as the wrong feels right! like its in flight, high off the love, drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffin paint and love it!
The more i suffer i suffocate and right before I'm about to drown, she
Resuscitates me! SHE FUCKIN HATES ME! and i love it wait
Where you GOIN I'm leavin you
No ya ain't one back we're running right back, here we go again its so insane cause when it's going good its going great!
I end there smiling, i love that song i seriously know every word.
Wow! amazing Alex says
Thanks, truth or dare
Dare!
Hmmm kiss me ?
Like a cheek kiss? lip kiss? or...tounge kiss... Alex says
Umm lip kiss?
Kay, Alex says
*we face each other turn our heads lean close and brush our lips together
Softly colliding in perfect harmony*
I was going for a small kiss but if she want to kiss longer hellll yes!!
She wraps her arms around my waist leaning closer into me
I scoot closer to her wrapping my arms around the back of her neck..
Shivers run through my spine
We break after 12 minutes of kissing for air and she winks at me,
I blush a bright shade of pink
"Truth or dare"
I'm staring into her eyes she says something but i cant hear because I'm distracted..
"Huh?"
I said truth or dare, Alex replies smiling at me.
"Oh, truth"
Alex smirks and brush hair out of my face and traces my lips with her fingers...
I shiver and she continues taking her sweet time..
Do you... have a crush on me?
Uhmm yeah... i frown and look down at the ground holding back tears an biting my lip
"Scarlet? Alex looks down at her icy blue eyes sparkling with sadness, she l lifting scarlets chin with her black fingernail"
Yes?
I love you... Alex says
Scarlett- you can't
Alex-why not
Scarlett- because
Alex-why you always wearing jackets and hoodies all the time?
Scarlett-Alex.. Not now!
Alex-hmmmm... thinks and a worried look crosses her face when it dawnd on her, scarlet. give me your arm!
Scarlet- no...
Alex-grasps Scarlets arm try's to turn it over
Scarlet- i struggle and fight to keep her from pulling down the sleeves.. no! stop, i end up giving up and let her turn it over
Alex- turns it over pulls down the sleeves, gasps at the thousand of red deep slashes in her "crushes" wrists
She quickly pulls down the other sleeves noticing it the same as the first
Scarlet- she looks at the cuts my sliver friend left behind and struggle here biting my lip telling myself not to cry.. but i burst into tears anyway an curl up in a ball sobbing..
Alex-she starts crying, and i pull her into my arms and hug her tight as thou she might disappear and never come back, her crying starts to silence as i run my fingers throu her hair
And softly whisper "it will be ok my love..."
