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chapter7

Lui Perspective

I was walking towards the WBBA it was very cold outside, and i didn't have a jacket with me. The last time i had a jacked my dad tore it apart and made me sleep outside in the cold, and the day after that i was really sick and i still had to go to school. I probably looked really tired and weak, i don't even know how i managed to stay awake the entire day. And i wasn't even alowed to get a new jacked. 'I really hate my dad', I don't even know why he hates me so much. And everytime I ask him about it he just says 'Because you were born and ruined my and your mother's life's!' How is that even my fault? I didn't ask to be born, maybe it would be better if i was never born at all. Maybe it would be better if i was dead...

When i finally got to the WBBA i opened the door and walked inside, I walked through the dark hallway while looking for the room where my team always train. I had already put on my training clothes, but the only bad thing is they can see all the cuts on my left arm and all the bruises on my body. But even if they asked me what had they should know i'm never going to tell them, they should know that by now.

When i finally found the room i was about to open the door but i stopped myself, for some reason i was really nervous. To nervous talk to them, 'Why am i so nervous?' i shaked off the nervous feeling and just opened the door without a second thought. When i walked inside the others were training really hard and were sweating a lot, i don't think they even noticed me coming in at all. I just watched them train, while i leaned against the wall with my arms crossed.

Half an hour later they finally stopped training to take a break, and then they finally noticed that i was here too. They didn't say anything to me though, they just left the training room, and went to do whatever they were planning on doing. It's not really a surprise that they don't want to talk to me, who would? I'm a asshole that's always being really mean to them and insulting them, no wonder they don't want to talk to me. "But i guess i'm used to it by now..." I whispered to myself.

I stood there for another three minutes just staring at the floor, i wasn't even thinking about anything at all. But suddenly i heard someone opening the door to the training room. I looked up at the person and saw that they were walking towards me.

"Hey, how are you doing?" Gabe asked me with a little bit of concern in his voice.

"Good." I just replied while looking back at the floor, I didn't feel like talking to him or anyone else for that matter. Every time i talk to someone i end up hurting there feelings. He didn't say anything back for a few seconds.

"Why where you so late?" He suddenly asked while looking down at me. "Is something wrong?"

"That's none of your business." I said to him in a harsh and mean sounding voice, while i had an angry expression on my face.

He didn't say anything for a few seconds he just looked at my at my left arm."Why are there cuts on your left arm?" He asked me.

"Again that's none of your business!" I said in a more soft but still harsh tone.

"Fine, if you don't want to tell me that's ok, just know you can tell me when something's wrong." After he said that he looked at me for a second with concern, and then he walked away. Why does he even care? And does he really care or is he just pretending to? Why is everyone confusing me so much? I hate it so much. I hate it when i can't figure something out, it makes me feel so useless. I don't know how many times i've said it but i'm pathetic, weak pathetic and useless. I hate being all of those things but yet i am, no matter how hard i try not to be i still am. "I'm so...weak..." i whispered to myself. Suddenly i fellt tears falling down my face.

I was shocked for a second but i quickly wiped my tears away, and when i did i heard the sound of the training room door closing. I walked towards the door and opened it but i saw no one, i closed the door and sat down in front of it. Was someone watching me cry? Oh no if someone did they probably see me as a weakling, i may be a weakling but i don't want other people to think that of me. "I don't want to be weak..." i don't want to be weak i want to be strong, strong enough that no one could ever hurt me again. But no matter how hard i try i'm still weak, i just don't want to be weak anymore. I don't want people to keep hurting me, i don't want to be in pain anymore.

I stood up from the floor and opened the door, and then i walked to my training room. When i got there i started training, i've noticed that i've gained weight and i don't like it one bit. It's probably because i have been eating a lot, it's a good thing the others didn't notice it at all. I trained for another hour, i didn't even bother to take a break. I was so tired and i was so dizzy, i felt like i could collapse at any second. But i have to keep exorcising if i want to loos weight, after another twenty minutes of exercising i just couldn't take it anymore. I fell to the cold hard floor, i fell on my head and it hurted a lot. I tried to stand up again but everything was spinning, i was just to dizzy. I tried to stand up again but i immediately fell down again, and when i did i suddenly heard the sound of someone running towards me.

"Are you alright!?" I heard someone yell in concern while they tried to help me get up. I looked up at the person that was helping me but i couldn't make out who it was, my vision was way to blurry. The person helped me walk over to the bench in my traing room while trying to get me to stay awake, i didn't want them to help me at all i didn't want to look so weak. But i had no choice i didn't have the strength to protest, when we got to the bench i sat down and tried not to fall down again.

"Just sit there i'll get you some help!" After the person said that they ran away to get help, while i was desperately trying to stay awake and not collapse to the ground. But no matter how hard i tried it was no use, before the person that helped me get up came back with more help i had already fallen to the ground. And before i finally fell asleep the only thing i could hear was the sound of people yelling in concern.

I hope you guys like this chapter and sorry it took so long to update this story.