Dreams come true

Suicide

This is a sad one so please don't read if you don't want to be upset or don't want to read of how I felt like dying

There I was sat on my bed I decided I'd had enough of life I was breaking down crying a river of tears I wondered why I was still alive if all that happens to me is bad and that was my decision I decided I didn't want to live anymore so I wrote my suicide that that ran;

Dear Mum, I know you will probably be sitting on your knees crying wondering how you never saw the lines why you couldn't believe me when you say the amount of distress I was in from emailing out for help and you stopped me from doing it and I know you will blame yourself but don't please I never did this to hurt you all I want is for you to be happy.Please don't stop being the Mum you are tell Taylor he was the best brother ever even when he got on my nerves tell him I love him very much that I'm in a happy place now where I will love him even more they'll him not matter what I'm always with him even if he can't see me. Tell Mia how pretty I always thought she looked even when she made a huge mess how much I love her although we didn't get on well with each other. Tell Ryan I loved him although I never showed him. I couldn't take the pain anymore and all I lived was pain cutting was an escape but it was never enough so please hate me if you must I hate myself anyway but don't dwell on my death please go live on as happy as can be I love you all and I'm sorry I'm sorry I couldn't be the perfect daughter sister friend I'm sorry I could show you my pain I'm sorry you never believed me I'm sorry I was stupid but I'm sorry love from Amy xx

And I then got a bag of my most cherished things so my book of the people who loved me and a prom photo that's all I gathered I put it in a bag and I walked all the way down to the local train station. I waited there for hours till the best train was on its way then I jumped I was gone that was me in my happily ever after finally free finally dead not a moment did I regret.